Neha13
May 16, 2011, 10:33 AM
Hi,
I am in love with a guy, we were together in college, at that time also we liked each other (in fact I was in love with him, but never let him know it).
After college we came into job and were in the same city, he proposed me then. But, knowing that his parents will never approve (we are Indian and of different caste), I always said 'No'. He said that he can fight with the whole world for me :)
That time there were many marriage proposals for me. But, he emotionally blackmailed me, saying that how can I do it with him, how can I destroy his life... bla bla bla (coz we were together for 3 months). Being an emotional fool, I rejected all the proposals, by making excuses. I told my mom that I can't conceive (to stop them requesting me to get married). This thing I said to few boys also whose proposals were there for me (such a shameless girl I was).
I committed to him after that. We were together for around 3 years. He used to call me his wife (and I trusted him). We used to sleep together and were somewhat physical (though never had sex actually). In fact, I started acting like his wife.
He convinced me that he will marry me at any cost.
After 3 years of our relationship he told me that he can't marry marry me because his father would die (his father is the biggest drama king on this earth and even he knows this). The whole family is the same. His sister begged in front of me not to marry some one else and later she also forgot it.
Anyway, then he broke up with me saying that he still loves me more than anything but nobody in this world can leave his parents because of a girls. He made me so many promises and then left me alone, crying, shaking in a corner. I tried to commit subside also. I hate him for all the things he did to me, for spoiling my whole life. But, I love him more than I hate him
The problem is that I still love him desperately and want him back at any cost. Rather I love him more that anybody, more than my parents.
God help me, what I am doing. It has been 2 years since our break up and I'm still crying over the split milk. He says that he loves me but can't marry me. Help me please, I want to die. I can't think of anybody, except him. Why does not he understand this.
I am in love with a guy, we were together in college, at that time also we liked each other (in fact I was in love with him, but never let him know it).
After college we came into job and were in the same city, he proposed me then. But, knowing that his parents will never approve (we are Indian and of different caste), I always said 'No'. He said that he can fight with the whole world for me :)
That time there were many marriage proposals for me. But, he emotionally blackmailed me, saying that how can I do it with him, how can I destroy his life... bla bla bla (coz we were together for 3 months). Being an emotional fool, I rejected all the proposals, by making excuses. I told my mom that I can't conceive (to stop them requesting me to get married). This thing I said to few boys also whose proposals were there for me (such a shameless girl I was).
I committed to him after that. We were together for around 3 years. He used to call me his wife (and I trusted him). We used to sleep together and were somewhat physical (though never had sex actually). In fact, I started acting like his wife.
He convinced me that he will marry me at any cost.
After 3 years of our relationship he told me that he can't marry marry me because his father would die (his father is the biggest drama king on this earth and even he knows this). The whole family is the same. His sister begged in front of me not to marry some one else and later she also forgot it.
Anyway, then he broke up with me saying that he still loves me more than anything but nobody in this world can leave his parents because of a girls. He made me so many promises and then left me alone, crying, shaking in a corner. I tried to commit subside also. I hate him for all the things he did to me, for spoiling my whole life. But, I love him more than I hate him
The problem is that I still love him desperately and want him back at any cost. Rather I love him more that anybody, more than my parents.
God help me, what I am doing. It has been 2 years since our break up and I'm still crying over the split milk. He says that he loves me but can't marry me. Help me please, I want to die. I can't think of anybody, except him. Why does not he understand this.