just_air_17
Jun 27, 2009, 11:50 AM
I am 18 years old and I don't know if I'm going crazy or if I really want this.
I have thought about getting pregnant various times and once I thought I was but I wasn't. And I was both relieved but disappointed. I know what a responsibility it is to have a baby. I've babysitted babies and it is NOT easy. They require attention, time, and love. So I DO know it's a big deal. BUT... when I think about it, it makes me feel this feeling inside I can't explain. A beautiful feeling. I think about holding that beautiful girl or boy and how it would be MINE and I think about what he or she would look like. (because I'm mexican and my 3 year boyfriend is white) and I think about how much closer we would be! And it all seems so nice and great... but then I start thinking about school, my parents... and I say to myself woah hold on now! I just graduated from high school, I'm starting college in the fall, my parents would go nuts, and I haven't found a job! How would I support a baby?! Even though my boyfriend does have a job, I couldn't leave him fully responsible.
And there was another thing that came to mind. I thought about how tired I am of school and how I kind of don't want to do music anymore. And I don't know maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, but I want to move out of my parents' house and get a place with my boyfriend and get married!
So should I just forget about school for a while? Or stick through with it?
Maybe I could do all the things I want to happen?
Someone help
I have thought about getting pregnant various times and once I thought I was but I wasn't. And I was both relieved but disappointed. I know what a responsibility it is to have a baby. I've babysitted babies and it is NOT easy. They require attention, time, and love. So I DO know it's a big deal. BUT... when I think about it, it makes me feel this feeling inside I can't explain. A beautiful feeling. I think about holding that beautiful girl or boy and how it would be MINE and I think about what he or she would look like. (because I'm mexican and my 3 year boyfriend is white) and I think about how much closer we would be! And it all seems so nice and great... but then I start thinking about school, my parents... and I say to myself woah hold on now! I just graduated from high school, I'm starting college in the fall, my parents would go nuts, and I haven't found a job! How would I support a baby?! Even though my boyfriend does have a job, I couldn't leave him fully responsible.
And there was another thing that came to mind. I thought about how tired I am of school and how I kind of don't want to do music anymore. And I don't know maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, but I want to move out of my parents' house and get a place with my boyfriend and get married!
So should I just forget about school for a while? Or stick through with it?
Maybe I could do all the things I want to happen?
Someone help