Hi all,

I have been dating my boyfriend for over 5 years now. We are great together.
To give you a brief summary :- he was my first boyfriend, first guy I slept with. He had more experience is the bedroom when we initially started sleeping together. You can say he trained me and I'm comfortable with him.
He sometimes askes me to masterbate in front of him and I just can't get myself to do it, I feel ashamed and embarresed. He doesn't force me, but I know he would like to see me do it, and the other thing is I can't get myself to swallow.
I know a lot of his ex girlfriends have done both the above for him, and I feel like abit of competition. But all his ex's were very easy going girls, if you know what I mean.
We even have a friend (female) who talks about how she masterbates in front of her man when he is not in the mood, and it annoys me, that's she talks like that.
I don't know what to do.
HELP ME Please