I have a serious meth problem with meth and just about anything else I can get my hands on. I live alone with my 8 dogs and 2 cats who are my only real friends in the real word. I also talk to some people on a Dan Patrick website but mostly they ridicule me by making fun of my pld age and many pets.

I have gotten so desparte for meth that I have sold sexual favors at a local trcukstop but it only gets me high for the rest of the day. Also I often explore abanded buildings in the area to try to my copper pipes or anything else I an scrap for a few dollars. I have been arrested several times but the police never catch me with much meth because I use it all so fast. So in a few days I am out again and can get High again. I can snort meth shoot it smoke it anything grams a day is not a problem.

My hair and nails are starting to fall out and most of my teeth are gonze and I often cry about what I am doing to myself. I run out of food to feed the animals so sometimes they eat eachothers feces or garabge. My house is full of garbage and old Grocho Marx films, it's getting to where I can't walk out the door easy. Sometimes when I am really high on meth I rub peanut butter all over myself and let them lick it off. I know its sick but it's the greatest feeling ever when you are high. Sometimes when I can't find meth I sypin gas out of peoples cares and sniff it which hurts but does the trick

PLease someone tell me where to get help? Is there any hope for someone like me to turn their life around . I am sorry this meaage is so garbled but I'm still pretty high and using the compyer in the liberay because I sold mine for meth.

Listen,the only way to end this reign of chaos is to stop using 100%.

You can start by going to N/A meetings,there are many recovering addicts there who can and will assist you,but you have to be willing,100% willing to quit.Your commitment must match theirs,otherwise they would just be enabling another addict to make it through their efforts, not making it on their own.

There you are not alone.

If you can't feed the pets,let the shelter take them,you are doing them no good by keeping them there,neglect is just going to be an additional stress on you while you are attempting this recovery.

YOU must the number one priority for YOUR recovery,not animals,not other people,not bills,etc.

Seek state assistance if needed,there are treatment centers still out there for your addiction treatment.. one must LOOK to find them.

N/A states in the opening readings,there are 3 possible outcomes of continued use,Jails, Institutions,and death.Which of these 3 might you want?

KBC

Get help fast! I am a addictions counselor in MD. I have seen people get off meth and heroin and become great productive people. What are you waiting for? Report to a hospital or program now. Also call or take animals to be adopted. As someone with 7 cats, I find it appalling that you can't feed them. They should n't have to pay for your addiction

I think that if you stop using meth you will just want more until you really decide its effects are even worth the effort anymore... This might have to come from some form of disipline or loss but I think most of all one must truly love oneself not to want to be messed up all the time and I am not going to lie to you and say that is easy. I think that is why so many do NA/aa and stuff like that because the relationships you grow with the other people are actually more important than the program itself and that's what takes you away from the dope and junk...