
Originally Posted by
Kourtney11
I've started cutting on the 18th of November 2011. I started to cut myself when I thought that I screwed my chances with a close friend and I thought I was losing everything I had, I sliced my index 5 times until I started feeling faint. Then I stopped for 16 days. Cause my boyfriend made me promise not to harm myself again cause he loves me too much and doesn't want to lose me. So I stopped...but last night I felt empty and lonely, remembering all those painful dark times I was going through. So I started crying and I remembered I had pieces of small glass under my nightstand that been there for months cause my brother broke something accidentally, but as I was saying... I was remembering my sad/painful/depressing past. So I sliced my left arm/wrist 32 times except their small and my right arm 1 time but its 3 inches and it bled for awhile. And it was hard enough to tell my boyfriend before how am I going to tell him now? I never thought or tried to kill myself. But I thought that feeling pain was better then feeling numbness and emptiness. But I guess I was wrong.
Anyway please help.
-Kourtney
Have you considered speaking to a therapist or counsellor? It's my understand that the physical pain from cutting takes away the emotional pain a person is experiencing. Do you believe that is true?
Is he still your boyfriend? I thought he was cheating - ?
If he loves you he will listen. Maybe he won't understand it, maybe it will frighten him, but he loves you he will listen and help you through this.
Your screen name, Imnothing, is not true - you are someone's daughter, someone's granddaughter, a niece, maybe a sister, undoubtedly a friend. Maybe this is about self worth. You may very well need someone to guide you through your feelings.
You DO have value. You just don't see that right now.