I became bulimic in 1998 when I was going through a divorce. I gained some weight after I had my daughter (born in 1994) and my husband was taunting me about being overweight! I got a divorce (for a lot of reasons) and 2 months after my divorce I met a man that saved my life! He walked in on me "throwing up" in the bathroom after supper! I am "bigger boned" and I was a size 5 at the time I met this man! (After I had my daughter I was a size 16). My boyfriend told me that he would love me whether I was a size 5 or a size 16)... so I stopped! It wasn't easy! I started to see a counselor because I would throw up when my boyfriend and I fought! That relationship ended after 3 years. It has now been 3 years since we broke up and I started throwing up again! I started about 2 weeks ago again! I have been seeing a counselor and talking to my doctor but I can't seem to stop! My doctor tells me that bulimia is a disease!

I have a daughter and I try to think of her before I do it but I can't seem to stop myself! I don't think of anything but being thin again when I am throwing up! I tell myself that I am being selfish!

I know bulimia is more common than people think and I need some help on how to stop!

It is a disease and acquiring it is not your fault. The recovery part, however, is your choice, your responsibility and you will have to work for it. But it is doable, it really is! I can appreciate how terrible the bottom is, you want to and don't want to stop! With all due respect, are you following what your counselor and doctor have advised? Are you taking the meds as prescribed? Are you following through on any suggestions they have made? Just be sure if you aren't willing to follow directions then don't be complaining of the results too, okay? The entire food/power/control relationship needs to be restructured and your therapist needs to help you with that. You need a support group too. You need to be able to call someone from a support group just before you think you'll have to purge, in order to interrupt that. Look for one in your area. Calll whoever you can think of to find one.

When it comes to stopping, the thing to do is find the exit door to this. I found it by someone reminding me I am stopped part of the time (since I am not literally doing it ALL the time) and the thing to do is extend those times to one day, one hour at a time if necessary. Then one day into two, etc. doing it one day at a time.

You are not alone in this, Single, but you will make the difference between it works or it doesn't so please take some action and keep us posted here.

I've been bulimic for almost 10 years now, and I know exactly how you feel. Waking up in the morning obsessing about every type of food and how much I want to eat it and everything seems OK, until its not! Stuffing my face because food is amazing, then throwing it up because the heaving and purging feels better then a full stomach. Its almost like, the instant I eat anything I can feel it turning into fat and suddenly celullite appears. *COOCOO!*
Sweety, all I can say is I'm still going through it and the only thing that I find helps is to keep busy. When we have too much tIme on our hands, we over analyze and get restless and insanely critical of our lives and just overal appearance! Number 2, work on you before your next relationship. If you can't love you, how can you love another or allow them to love you.

Keep smiling and remember there will be happiness and peace if you want it