I feel like I have the biggest problem in the world, I'm very much so addicted to my ex boyfriend we dated for the last year and a half and we fought so much we've had some very hard times and every few months thought our relationship we would have a very big break up but then we would get back together (I get over things really easily) it didn't really matter what he did to me he could talk to my friends, ask them to hangout behind my back sleep with other girls and lie to me about it even though everyone would tell me he did I just didn't want to believe it I guess I believed all the nice things he said to me.. even if we would have a big fight and id be like no I'm not doing this again and he would cry to me for days till I caved and this really went on for a year and a half, I basically torchered myself and I don't know why I know I deserve way better like he is the scum of the town and I'm a model.. people have been telling me since day one to walk away but I just never could and I also think its because he was my first boyfriend my first everything and now were broken up for good because not long ago he smashed my phone against the ground and hurt me physically and that happened like 2 weeks ago and everyone says I'm nuts cause I went back with him like 2 hours after that fight.. but my parents won't let me go back with him again cause there really worried about this whole situation but I am still so attached to him I want to talk to him and I want to go see him and he's still talking to me but if he like takes to long to reply my heart races and I want to know what he's doing I've even been temped to go drive by his house but I haven't I haven't talked to him all night and I'm trying to keep it that way for the rest of time... but I really just feel like I'm an addict and he's my crack! I feel like I'm dyin of a broken heart even know I shouldn't be cause he's been nothing but mean to me the whole time.. I can't stop crying every time I think of him I'm going insane it feels like an I miss him and love him so much, I just wanted things between us to have gone right and I never wanted to get hurt, I can't even think about another boy I only want him..

Help me please!!

Hi, exaddict18!

First, how old are you and he and what things about him are so good that you feel that you can't just simply move on to someone else, please?

Thanks!

Hi again, exaddict18!

I received your Private Message. I didn't delete anything here. Perhaps it was someone else?

Thanks!

I'm 18, 19 in sept.. im not sure besides all the bad stuff that happened there was some good and I guess I'm just holding on to that he was my first love and I just can't let go :(