Originally Posted by Christinamarie24

my name is christina, I am 24. I feel like I'm 64. In the past 3 years I have lost a childhood friend to cancer, I have failed at a job, and dropped out of college. But I think the real problems started happening about 2 years ago when I was involved in an armed robbery, where I was hogged tied, with my head covered and a gun to it.

You would think living through something like that would make me appreicate my life, but it hasn't. Its made me loss my confidence in everything. I can't seem to do anything for myself any more. I don't feel like i'll be sucessful. And when I say that, I mean a sucessful human being. I'm just not good at living. Everyday I wake up, I'm dissapointed.

I feel like I can't talk to anyone in my life about it because it has been 2 years ago since the robbery happened, and I feel as though I should be over it by now. Talking about it to people would only make them think that I'm out for attention. I'm only out to make this sick, dark feeling go away.

While I don't feel like I would kill myself, I definitely feel that I wish I would die. The joke I say to everyone is that today is going to be the best day of my life, because each day is just a little worse then the last. How do I make this pain stop? How to I make myself feel like the smart, confident, beautiful girl I used to be?