Originally Posted by YNona
... realized I made the wrong desicion on giving him up, but at the time I was under the influence of drugs.. ...
No, despite the drugs it looks like you made the right
But sorry: that decision, once made, cannot be second-guessed.
I'm fairly confident that there is no authority anywhere for visitation rights by a relative such as yourself. (What would you, legally, be now? His first cousin?)