I'm so sorry that you're going through this. I too am a survivor of childhood molestation, and I too was molested by a family member. I do know what you're going through, even though everyone experiences things differently.
Therapy is really the best option, and I hope that you can find some way to get in to see a therapist (sadly I can't help with that, I'm not in the US and have no idea how their system works).
Like Justcurious said, there are lots of great members on this site, and if you just need to talk, we're here to listen. You're not alone in this, sadly.
I hope you come back.