Originally Posted by valinors_sorrow
I can see even from here that the "caretaker" in you doesn't know what to do next, or how to take care of you only because you've been so focussed (and rightly so) on your dad.
I agree. The hardest part of coping with a loss is replacing the void that is created in your life. But it is something that must be done. Or the emotional sorrow will turn into physical afflictions.