Comment on things I know about.. I am sorry but all you have done is whinge and moan, you have done nothing to show that you are physically trying to get yourself help.
You can't help those who don't help themselves...
Goodluck, I shall not offer any more help on things "I do not know about" then.

Im going threw the same thing you are to not think about life in general I usual camp out in my room 24/7 and sleep its hard for anyone to understand because they don't feel the same way and that's frusterating its hard to find answers I ask myself everyday looking at a knife in the kitchen, a bottle of pills anything to make the misury stop but my advice is go to your doctor go to counciling I'v been attempting to follow threw with those things to get better and not feel the agonizing pain you feel inside and don't know why it's there or why it won't just go away I can't work and I can't even go to school that I can't escape the deep hole I'm in fighting to claw my way out and the light getting dimmer and I feel like I can't breath and start screaming for almost no reason at all but what I do realize is you find help you start to feel better then you take 2 steps back its an on going process but I'm will to fight to get out of the hole(the best way I try to describe it) so go get help it takes time you will feel like you on a tredmil not really going anywhere nothing really seeming like its getting better but it is slowly but for surely I hope you do seek help I know its difficult but its better then doing nothing and feeling like suffering to live threw each minute of each day if you ever want to talk about it just message me on here take care take each day one step at a time :)

Since, I know you are still reading this thread, I am going to tell you that I agree with the advice of get up off your butt and try to get help in the physical world.

You are correct that we don't know you or what you are going through, but that is only because everyone is an individual and unique in their physical, mental, and emotional experiences. Everyone has their own unique thought pattern and way of dealing with life.

Your way, at the moment, isn't working. You put a hand out here for help (though, from your words, it seems more for attention) and then slap away those trying to reach for you unless it is an offer of companionship in pain. I would bet that you haven't even called the number that mudweiser posted.

NO ONE can help you until you are fully ready for that help. It is one of the great truths of Life. Another one is that Life is what you make it. You make it gloomy and depressing-it is. You believe that it can be better-it is. Attitude says a lot about a person.

Where did/do you get the sleeping pills? If it is from a doctor then you need to talk to him/her about getting the proper diagnoses and medicines. What you are on right now isn't working.

Look I have a problem too and I acctualy cuted my skin today but then I regreted
Sometimes it's a reason why you do it
And maybe you need to see a psychatrist to help you or go over and start a new life

I sometimes want to kill myself. I have Bipolar disorder. The best thing you can do for yourself when you want to kill yourself is go to the hospital psychiatric ward. They will understand you and help you connect with doctors and support people. You are okay. You are beautiful, because there is no one else just like you. You are beautiful; keep that in the front of your mind.