This site doesn't have sessions. I wonder if you had been on a different one?
There are some Muslims here, but not often, so I will try to answer, even though I am not Muslim.
You have choices in life. What are your choices here, with your dilemma?
1. You can work on accepting the beliefs you have been taught, and continue on as you are.
2. You can find a center of Islamic studies, where people can help you understand that you have more control over your life than you think. Or even mosques in your area, where you might find an imam willing to talk with you in a caring way.
3. You can reject Islam, and either find another religion, or have none, or study several, and just lead a spiritual life without one religion.
I too am not too happy about being human, but don't believe in the idea that I had a choice before I was born. Nor do I believe in hell.
And I wouldn't want to be a cat or a tree. Both of them can have very painful, miserable lives. Everything can. I prefer to think about what is making me unhappy.
Want to say why you are so miserable? No one knows you here, so you can say what you want.
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