[Iris_p]

I actually watched some porn kind of videos on YouTube and my friend borrowed my laptop and he went through all the history and he got to know that I watch such videos. He one day directly asked me about it and I did not admit that I watch, but he knows I do. I feel so ashamed now to even talk to him now he will tell all our friends. The background where I come from, girls usually don't watch and it is considered very bad. How do I handle this?

[smoothy]

Either talk to him.. or password protect your computer so he can't find out more.

THere isn't much to admit....he already knows you did....if you are mature enough to watch them, then you are mature enough to talk with him about it. Its not like you are talking with EVERYONE about it. Which would be very different.

[Alty]

If it's bad where you live, than learn to hide it better. You loaned him your computer knowing that you watch porn and he'd likely find out. You have to be a bit smarter than this if you don't want people to know what you do in private.

[talaniman]

If he does blab his mouth to your friends, dump him, but you shouldn't have to lie, or be humiliated. Nor should you have sensitive things you don't want others to see without the appropriate protection. A hard lesson to learn.

Lose the fear, guilt, and shame and apologize for lying. If he accepts great, if he doesn't, lose him too, and be better for it. Another hard lesson to learn.

[Iris_p]

You I know I should have been careful but.. well its not a crime.. I just watched them.It will not harm anybody, then why am I feeling like this.. why all of them think that way.. omg am so frustrated now..

[talaniman]

You feel that way because you are young and are afraid of being judged and not understood like anyone would be.

[Iris_p]

I don't what he is thinking about me.. he is my best friend and now I can't even face him.. he may ask me again or make fun of that.. oh god I will go mad thinking about that..

[Alty]

Has he even mentioned this to you yet, or are you making a mountain out of a molehill?

If he's really your best friend he won't tease you about this, and he won't tell all of your other friends. That's not what friends do.

[Iris_p]

Yes he asked me once about it for which said no.. but he is not fool to believe me he went through everything I watched.. did anyone of you face such things ever?

[hilow79]

Hi iris I completely understand you as I too live in a place where girls are not supposed to watch porn. I think it is so "brave"of you for breaking the"rule" and watching it! The consequences... he may tease you or tell others right? What more can he do.. you are who you are! Don't let what others think of you scare you. First you need to be adult about this. When you act that way everyone's reaction fades away too.