21 year old 40
My boyfriend has been emailing, texting, talking to other girls escorts and trans on and off for the 2 years we have been together. He says it was just the way he has always been, it's just for fun, he has never been physical with anyone since we have been together ( I know this is true because we are always together) but it seems it could go further in the future since he keeps pursuing it right ? And he lies to me about it, he has promised and even signed a contract that he won't do it again but he can't seem to help himself. He says he only wants to be with me and grow old with me but he has a very high sex drive and this is all entertainment to him.
My rational mind says this is no good, disrespectful, hurtful, betrayal.. My hearts says I love him, he loves me, he is struggling with this possibly as a result of childhood abuse, and that I should be understanding and try to help him. But honestly I don't deserve to be treated this way, I am young, attractive, quite an amazing catch really, totally faithful, honest and loyal to him, we have great sex, yet he is going behind my back to get attention from 2's when I am at least an 8 ! The lying to my face is really the worst of it all.. What to do please ?
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