[Alilynn322]

My parents split up when I was born I now have a step mom and step father at my moms house thing don't go well we live in an apartment and are very poor my step dad is the main reason of our issues we get in "fights" but he yells at me for the smallest things sometimes his short temper has gotten the best of him me n my mom have been pushed and slapped but the thing is every body that I ever told says that slapping is a big deal I never thought it was but when a few weeks ago when we got in a argument my mom slapped me so hard my jaw locked in place and we had to snap it back and put ice on it my mom was never like this I miss the old her she doesn't love him she only stays with him because of my 3 year old half brother I go to my dads every weeekend I told them some things but not all I don't know what to and I don't know if I am over exaggerating but I have anxiety and I think a little depression I used to go to a councilor and theripost but all the sudden I didn't think it was helping I have a lot more to say but I want SOMEONE to read this and write me back please I don't know what to do!

[davidS96]

Hello Alilynn322,
My thinking of an answer on your question is that YES you are in one stage of abuse.. I am not some doctor or anything just a normal person and even I can see that you are having lots of problems which aren't in a stage of normal anymore.. try to get in contact with some better help,the sooner you will get some professional help the better..
I hope you will have some luck

[Alilynn322]

Omg Davids96 thank you so much for writing I almost cried you really helped me this may sound dumb but thank you so much

[davidS96]

Omg Davids96 thank you so much for writing I almost cried you really helped me this may sound dumb but thank you so much

Don't worry that's why this site exist :)
Just like I said,try to find help really soon,don't take anymore of that bulls*** (sorry)
I wish you luck

[JudyKayTee]

You need to protect yourself - and very possibly you need to keep your stepbrother from being abused. That means talking to a responsible adult who can help you - a clergy person, a teacher, a Physician - and your father.

You cannot change the dynamics between your mother and stepfather unless/until THEY want things to change. You can protect yourself before you get seriously hurt.

You need to find someone to talk to - is moving in with your father an option?

Why were you in therapy before?

You have to do something - I don’t want to see you get hurt.

[Alilynn322]

He is my half brother I was in therapy before because I told two adults what was going on and was having a hard time only being able to talk to them once I am a very mature girl for my age and I worry about a lot of things I am scared to come home and scared to realize that I am abused . Moving with my dad is an option in 2 years you have to be 14 by law but the thing is I love my mom very much and even though she doesn't treat me the way she should I can't help but feel bad for her at my dads I wish she could come with me . I have talked to my family members and they all want me to leave I just don't know if I am ready for changes I am so close to my siblings I couldn't bear to see them hurt

[Alilynn322]

If it weren't for my siblings I would have committed suicide by now

[Alilynn322]

I worte back to you

[JudyKayTee]

If it werent for my siblings I would have committed suicide by now

A very dear friend of mine DID commit suicide a number of years ago. No one - NO ONE - realize how much she was hurting. With her it was over a man.

I don't know how serious you are, if you are "just" venting, something else... but you NEED to speak to someone who can help you.

I take the suicide talk very, very seriously. Someone has to intervene.

If your problems are based on your living situation, that needs to be addressed. If it's some other emotional issue, that needs to be addressed.

You need to find help.

[Alilynn322]

I know I just can't imagine life without the amusement but I wonder when I'm gone what goes on he doesn't let my mom make any choices and if he ever comes coleus to her I literally push him away but I am just trying to defend her I am only 12 I and scared and confusied

[Alilynn322]

I meant abusement

[mogrann]

You need to find someone anyone to talk to. Keep telling adults what is going on until one will listen and help. Tell people also about how you are feeling and that you want to go back to therapy.
I wish you well and hope you are able to do this for yourself as well as for your brother.