[survivorr]

There's a guy at my college, we used to talk over a year now. He came first and introduced himself to me and from that time he was always talking to me. I didn't want to encourage him either for a relationship or friendship cause I know I can't do any of these two because of the situation in my life. He asked me about three times to be with him like girlfriend and boyfriend but I always turned him down. I think he realized that I am weird so he stopped talking to me from the summer and also for me he deleted his Facebook account and changed his YouTube account. Last semester we had one subject together he was acting like I wasn't there so did I but sometimes he was holding the door for me to pass and staring at me in class but I was pretty sure that he was staring with that hateful look like he was about to kill me. In the exam alk of a sudden cause of a mistake of the professors they told me to sit behind him. I was shocked and couldn't focus on my exam and when the teacher gave him the paper to give it to me he told me "good luck" without looking at me. Now after about 5 months he made a fb account again and uploaded his videos on YouTube again. He comes at different hours at college than me so I can't see him but I can't stop stalking his fb and I saw that he shared some songs that we used to talk about and felt so together... He isn't a good looking guy that you will say wow she likes him for the looks but I like him and I wish he would talk to me even though he told me I'm weird. Sometimes I don't want to like him and I get hurt when I see pictures of him hanging out with other girls. We never went out and we only talked through Facebook and skype and at college sometimes. I don't understand what am I going through. Why can't I just forget him? Like we never talked though I just wish he is feeling the same way and sometimes I wish he find a way to communicate with me cause I don't think that I will ever talk to him cause I will feel like in disturbing him...
Any comments and advices are acceptable