Help my marriage
Hi my name is pedro and first I like to say that my english is not perfect but I'm going to try my best. My wife and I are separated.  still living together With the kids which they don't suspect a thing, we still sleep together no sex  we coddle and hug each other but that's it.       Â
She tells me she don't love me anymore, a lot of things has happened  in the last year,  let me start by giving you a little history.  we meet in 1998 I was her first love and then I left her because her parents told me too, I was 20 she was turning 16 (you now what I mean) so I left her and yes I was in love with her and her parents took her away. So I didn't see her again, so she got involved with someone else, she had a baby boy, but she was in a abusive relation ship and so on.   3 years later I saw her in a club and I started to talk to her.  when it was time to go home we sad good bye.  Outside the club I see her walking away when I see a man Which was her boyfriend,  grab her by the hair and started  dragging her and hitting her.   the superman came out of me and I gave that man what he deserve and I took her and her son with me and it's bin ten years sense that happened.   And she was abel to start something new with me.Â
  Her son my stepson has  ADHD  and his a loving kid that I love him dearly but I treat him differently from my own kids,  I'm more  tough with him,  his always doing things that just drives me crazy and I don't know how show him love.    2 weeks ago in school he had a melt down the he wanted to kill himself they call 911 and he was taken to the hospital.  he was seen by a  counselor and my stepson sad that my dad don't love me that  no body care about him only mom,   And I felt so heart broken but I still had my own problem to deal  with.   this is my problem . Â
When I was 7 I was sexually molested by a man. Â if I go to a public restroom and there is a kid there I run out the bathroom. Â I don't hold, hug, kiss my nieces, nephews and no body's kids cause I can't, Â and I don't watch or babysit anybody's kids, Â i have a problem I know,I can't fix it but I have no problem with my own kids. I started to do more things with my stepson and I see that were getting along much Better. Â
   We have had other problems in the past, I have cheated on her before we were married, we been married 8 years.  but in the last year we have done some crazy things like have 3somes  and so on.    she started to talk to an old friend like 8 month ago and I started to know something was different then she told me that there where just friends but she felt something for him and she told me that she did not love me anymore. I started to check this guy out and he had a girl and I took pictures and showed It to my wife and so that ended.  I was not giving my wife any attention and I did  A complete 360.  we got back together and thing were so much better Now this happened with my stepson and it's all over once again.
 I love my wife dearly and I just want us to be together again what can I do? Can you see a light a the end of the tunnel? It's it all over? What are my chances ?Â
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