[lmnotok]

When we're out of a relationship...
When we realize we took things for granted...

I went from disappointed, angry, unforgivable, hollow to take-it-easy, peaceful, comfortable, and what's really left inside is sadness. I forgive you, I forgive myself for what was wrong in the past. I don't hate you for making me leave you, I don't regret either.

THere are times that I was quite over you, the next is missing. Sometimes I feel like my heart explodes, shot the hell out of my chest and tearing into pieces, just want to tell you how I feel but I couldn't, kept writing and erasing or throwing into garbage.

There are times I feel hollow, I don't love, don't like, don't hate, don't feel anything.

There are times I just want to punch the hell out of you. I took your picture and cut it into piece, throw all the gifts, presents you gave out of the window and silently collect them together a few days later.

As time goes by, I had both bad and good experience, I become new-me, feelings change too. You once told me "my darling, someday when you grow up you will understand how much i love you" and you cried. I didn't know why, but right now I am crying as I understand all of this.

I don't have gut feelings anymore, my heart no longer explodes, my blood runs routinely again, I'm all at calm. For the first time, I can identify sad from angry, frustrated, upset, hatred...

I'm simply sad...
How can I tell you? I don't want to tell you either, because it doesn't help us, but I still want you to know it.
How can you know it darling?

[emopunk7]

That was great... Write poetry and then share it with us!

[lmnotok]

Thanks, I feel better to let it out.

[Rockabilly1955mama]

Letting things out is always helpful during hard times. That was great.

[talaniman]

This is a great place to vent.