[heartyangelgirl]

I don't mind having a conversation with friends or other people closest to me, but I absolutely can't bear holding one with my Mum and I know that must be wrong in many ways. I had lost a job a few months ago and have taken up volunteering as a way of developing new skills and looking for a new one later on, and every time I have to answer her as to how I did, I just cringe, struggle to explain how my day went and what I learned, and even try to back out of the conversation altogether.

I just hate sharing with her but I don't quite know. It's probably because I'm so knocked back from losing my job that I'm never 100% certain how my performance will be in a new one and even in a voluntary position, I don't have full confidence in myself or abilities and sometimes I end up trying TOO hard to get things right the first time round and secure my chances of keeping a job in the future rather than losing it.

I'm a bright person with a 2.1. degree, yet I seem to struggle so much with many things such as operating a till efficiently, remembering where each icon is so I'll be able to make transactions quicker and so on when most people pick that up within a day or so. I learn some things fast, yet I'm so slow at learning other things, it's all so inconsistent and I hate opening up about what is really happening, leading my Mum to believe I have no personality or social skills.

I think I'm just a complete mess and it's depressing me seemingly having no sense of true self. :(

[Wondergirl]

What are you good at? What do you enjoy doing? (Let's look at the positives.)

[talaniman]

Just curious if your mom knows you lost your job? Losing a job is for sure a confidence breaker, but you went into volunteering and that in itself takes confidence so don't be so hard on yourself.

Go get another job and get your confidence back. Just takes some courage to try again.