Jackie ~
How are you? First, I want to let you know that at 12 years old, you don't need to worry about all this stuff as much as you probably do. I was in the same place as you 7 years ago, and I wish now that I hadn't spent my time worrying about who I am. To answer your first question, I would try asking her out, or telling her that you like her again. The worst that could happen is that she doesn't like you back, but trust me, in middle school that stuff only matters for a week or two.
For your second question: Don't try to make a definition for who you are right now. In middle school people put enough labels on us, you don't have to put anymore on yourself. At 12 years old, you are changing a lot, and these changes won't stop for at least another 8 years. It is perfectly natural to have strong feelings for a close friend who is also a boy, anything you feel is natural for you. You don't have to be the same as all of your friends, or the people on T.V. Just know that in time you will discover who you are, and right now you just need to focus on having fun!
I hope that this was helpful to you, good luck!
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