95% no motivation nowadays. Can I ever change?
Hate on me all you want I hate myself more then you could possibly dare to hate me...
So I go day to day; Eat play video games sleep (8-15+hrs), but the only thing that motivates me anymore is talking with friends and playing video games.
I know what I need to do (house chores+get a job/work),
I know what I could do (draw or get out of house/go to friends place),
I know what I should do (work on stuff for college)...
But I can't seem to push myself to do it. You can call It laziness or depression Idk.. All I know is I have no motivation.
I don't drink, don't smoke (anything), hate life, see all the chaos, note the forced quality of a "dollar bill". I feel that life is so worthless.. And this gives me no motivation.
Why I post a question here is. How can I fix this? I feel like I'm a flame and all I do is burn anything and everything that comes near.