I've been in a relationship with a wonderful person for almost 4 years now. I love him dearly and would never jeopardize what we have. The most annoying thing is that I have found myself having crushes, the most recent of which has got me thinking about the relationship.
This new crush is not a person I would have thought I would be interested in. The crush isn't based on looks. This person's lifestyle is completely incompatible with mine. For example, I would have to give up eating meat, probably wearing leather shoes, and the like. Considering the consumer whore that I am, it doesn't take much to realize---implausble. But I still have a crush.
We work in the same environment and are going to school for the same thing. He, however, will use his degree not to make oodles of money, but to fight social injustice/ feed the bleeding heart drive.
I've started to realize that maybe it's the passion he has--reflected so calculatingly in his life choices.
Anyway, should I be worried?? I don't think there's a snowball in hell's chance of him returning feelings... not his type.
What worries me is that I think I'm getting bored with my relationship. Same routine. And, this man who I love dearly, who I once thought lived with a passion or drive, doesn't appear to be doing that anymore.
A proposal may be close... and crushes like this make me wonder if there is something missing.
Arrggg... sorry for incoherent mess.