I want to go, but feel like I should stay
First a bit of background information for this question.
My husband is a very good provider, earning a good wage. I feel it enough for me to stay at home with the children - he wants a more comfortable life style. I'm happy to work my casual job as a teacher, but the money is infrequent.
I feel that my husband is quite negative and his words and actions often bring myself and the kids down. He is often critical of what we do.
Now here is the spanner for the works: I am trying to build a career as a writer. It's not going as smoothly as we would like and I have trouble making money. My husband is verbally supportive, but then his actions are not helpful.
One more complication: our children have been a source of conflict ofr my husband and I. Our son has ADHD and occaisional seizures, so his behaviour is often immature. Our daughter is very strong willed and will grow up to be quite spolit if we don't keep a tight reign on her... so leaving would also rock the boat for them, making them even harder for me to deal with.
I often think about leaving, but then I would cut off my means of support for myself and the children and I make my dream career much harder to achieve (though not completely impossible). I can't decide to stay or go.