I know that Pete did not mean anything by this and he was trying to hurt me in any way but I was almost in tears last night and I just need to get this off my chest.
His mate has who we spend a lot of time with went through a bad break up a couple of months ago. We have supported him as best we can and he is really starting to move on now which is fab. Petes mate really fancies my mate 'S' and we were talking about her last night.
My birthday is coming up and I have made plans for a nightout. I said to Petes mate that if nothing happened with 'S' then some of my other single friends were going to be out. (I said this in a jokingly way) and then he enquired who would be joining us. I told him their names and then mentioned that one had a baby. Petes mate was not bothered by this at all, but Pete looked up and said "well thats her out then".
I asked him what he meant and he said "well she has a baby, so she's a no goer".
He knows I had an abortion a few years ago - so my next question to him was - "so if I had a baby, your saying you would not have touched me with a barge pole" and he responded with "No I would not have "
At that point I could feel tears welling up in my eyes so I asked them if they wanted a cup of tea and disappeared to the kitchen. I had to pull myself together. I started thinking how awful that was. If I had gone through with my pregnancy I would not have Pete, I would not have the life I have today and it really hit a nerve and I was not expecting to feel that way.
I put my washing on in a bid to give me more time to pull myself together. I did just that but found tears were rolling down my eyes on and off whilst I had my head in his lap. He was playing with my hair and hugging me tightly whilst watching a film and nothing more got said. I was really tired last night which probably did not help, and I feel OK this morning but it is still playing on my mind a bit.
All your thoughts would be much appreciated.