I'm in a bit of a dilemma. I could use some outsiders looking in... I love my husband and we have been together 10years, 10 rough years. I met him when he was 22 I was 28 so as you might know he was still doing silly boy things. I looked past that because there was just something there between us I knew he was the one. And every since he's been the one. I was always crazy in love and crazy about him. Well problem is after dealing with so many of the silly boy things. You can already imagine, animosity grows and feelings die.
We split up for 2yrs we both started dating to rebound. Well he took his a little far, asked the little girl to marry him. I agreed to a divorce and loved my then new boyfriend dearly. My husband and the little girl they had me all in the middle of their mess at times. Even had the nerve to try and hurt me by asking had I gotten the divorce papers typed up on Christmas! That was a bit hurtful how do you move past that? So about a few months later my husband looses his high paying job and the little girl goes back to the father of her child. So of course my husband begs me to come back and I was happily involved! He managed to manipulate me into taking him back with ways that were out of this world. He was going to kill himself or he was going to kill my boyfriend and so on. I finally give in I didn't want to fight it and I did love him.
Here we are a year later and he actually got a good job and is on his best behavior ever. Guess he finally grew up 10yrs later, but I feel it's too late. I think of all we have gone through because of his ways and it makes me feel so ill. What do I do and am I wrong? I have communicated my feelings to my husband several times, he tells me the past is the past and to try to let it go. However I feel the past had a lot to do with today! Will I ever let go of the past?