Relationship Breakup Help
Hi, Just need a little advice please...
My relationship with my fiancé has ended after 3 years a couple of months ago. I will start from the beginning. I met her when I was 23, she was 17, I did not know if it would work to start with as she wanted to finish it after 4 weeks of dating. She then asked me back on the same day after I said I was O.K. with it but kind of disappointed. I took her back and then continued dating, having fun and it was a good relationship and we did many things together. She then broke up with me again 18 months later claiming she wanted to be free and single again and that she missed going out with her friends and the 'it's not you, it's me' quote. I was very hurt by this as by this point, I knew I was in love with her and the relationship had grown very serious. I accepted the breakup after some begging to her to give it a second chance. I had never done anything wrong but care for her. After 5 or 6 days after she knew I accepted it, her mum rang me up saying she was breaking down in tears saying she hated herself and that she missed me and wanted me back. I took her back... I loved her. Four months later we got engaged and she was adamant she wanted to marry me, I wanted to take things slowly but agreed that since I loved her, why wait... We got enagaged in December 2005... 3 weeks ago, she met up with one of her female friends who she had not heard from for a while and went out with her for the weekend. She then rang me up on the Monday after saying she wanted to finish the relationship as she did not love me anymore and did not want to be with me anymore. I could not believe it, she said this last time. A few days later, I went to see her face to face and she told me the same... I broke down in tears as she told me. I asked her if there was someone else but she said "no...I just want to be on my own" and told me to find someone better than her. She then gave me the engagement ring I asked for back and said "I just think we should leave it for a while" What did that mean?? I said "no, leave it forever" and she seemed to not like me saying that. I can't help but think that her friend has misled her or manipulated her into this decision and maybe said something like, "being single is better". I have since spoke to her mum who says she is not seeing anyone else but around her friends house every night. I tried some contact but she does not want to know. I have now decided to end all contact... I still hope that she will come back... I think where I may have gone wrong this time is that I showed her that I did not want to break up with her this time and it has been 2 months now and she has not contacted me. I love her so much but I am broken hearted by what she has put me through...
I just wanted to add that she is now 20, and I am 26, this was her first real relationship. Some friends have told me that she may miss single life and wants to experiment... This hurts but sounds possible.. She did says to her mum that she met me too young... I am hurting like hell over this, does anyone think I will get her back and is no contact the best way?
Sorry for rambling on in here...
Please can someone help me understand this?