Need help hiding that I'm gay
Hi.. My name is Brian from Australia. I'm 18 years old and I recently started college. And I'm deeply in the closet and I feel like I'm suffocating.
NO ONE in this world knows that I'm gay and it kills me everyday to wake up and have to lie about who I am.
I come from a very religious and traditional family and I know for a FACT no one would be happy with me coming out.
I've known from a VERY young age that I like boys but I've religiously tried to hide it by surrendering myself to rugby, the gym, partying and hooking up with girls.
I feel like I'm going crazy and that I can't trust no one and I'm just using this platform to kind of get some of my real feelings out AND it's freaking me out.
How do I know I can trust someone with my secret? Need someone to just help me..
PLEASE NOTE I don't need help coming out, just need someone to carry the burden with me because I think I might die in the closet.