Im a dumb man who wants her back
Hello, I love the honesty given on the site so I thought id post up my problem. My girlfriend and I have been together for the best part of 3 years and of course I took her for granted. She warns me a few times that the relationship is all about me but I don't see where she's coming from (until now that is) She broke up with me about 2 months ago. Things came to a head when I kissed another girl when I was at a party, she finds out and boom she's gone! I chase her as I'm deverstated (I know selfish right?) I explain myself and my appalling actions 10x over, she's not having any of it. I keep spilling my heart out to this girl, but she's just so cold. Whenever I tried to fix things she said it was over. I finally find some pride and back off (a week or so passes) she calls.. she doesn't sound happy, she says that she's heard I'm heading of to this party weekend event (me and my friends do this every couple of months) and that a girl (who my ex has always thought likes me) is coming along, I confirm this. She goes completely PHYSCO on me telling me if she ever sees her she's going to rip her hair out etc at this point I'm dumbfounded. She tells me that if I go along to the event she'll never get back with me, I tell her I thought it was over? She then gives me the choice of going to the event or waiting for her. Of course I choose her. Things just don't seem to be going anywhere since. I contact her every 3 or 4 days and her anger doesn't seem to be taking a back sit. The other day I told her to tell me that she didn't love me anymore and that id leave her alone if she said it.. she couldn't say it and just got mad and then hung up. Im going on holiday tomorrow for 2 weeks and I just feel so guilty.. I love this girl and I guess its taken all of this for me to realise what she actually means to me. What can I do?