I am trying sooooooo hard to not piss my wife off, it seems she is just is just dead set on saying that I'm trying to make her mad. I want to shoot myself in the head... any advice??

What does she say you do that she doesn't like?

Stop letting other people control how you feel.

What is happening, in the relationship

No 1 is worth losing 1's life over!
I have the same thing as well.
I fins myself fighting fire!
With fire!
It's in defense!
You cannot li\et her get to you.
Try counseling.
If that does not work.
Divorce!

Let someone else have your leftovers!

What's holding you together?