I am 22 years old and never had a girlfriend. Please help.
I am 22 years old now. I am from middle class family. Some of the facts which I like about myself are that (& I am not exaggerating) I am 6 feet tall, good in sports, good in studies, good looking (that's what others say), good painter. The feature of me which I don't like is I am too shy and low on self confidence.
In my school days I didn't talk to girls that much. Many of my friend said, I am too shy and I should socialize more. But I didn't pay too much attention to that, I did spend my time in playing sports, playing guitar, drawing paintings etc. when my college life began I realized that I suck in talking with girls. I felt so awkward talking with girls. However after some years I felt comfortable talking and made few friends. Sadly I never got a chance to enjoy college life because in the second year I started working in a CA firm. And that's how my junior college years passed.
Now I am doing my management studies from one of the top 10 institutes of Mumbai, India. It’s actually my last year of college. And looking back I feel like I haven't lived those years at all. They are just gone. Now a day I feel so lonely inside, I just don't know what to do. Everyone in my group have a girlfriend now. After all these years I have realized 1 flaw in me which is responsible for my relationship status. I am emotionally unavailable to get into a serious relationship. I think I’m getting an expert in hurting people. Whenever some girl starts calling me too many times & we become good friends I get scared because I don’t want to go to the next step. It usually ends with us both not being friends. If I like any girl then I generally don’t have courage to just go and talk with her.
I am tired of hearing things like, it will happen when the time is right or dress neat, read a lot, be social and all that crap which everyone says.
Honestly, I wanted to be on my own as soon as possible. I am going to pass out next year and looking at current job situation. It’s hard to find a decent job. Looking back, there's only one thought in my mind that I’ve never enjoyed my college life to the fullest and never met a girl who loves me and I love her back. All these thoughts are making me hate myself.