I love Smileys ;)
AnywaysI have a friend that I've had a crush on since my freshman year in high school. He graduated when I was a sophomore and now I'm a senior and we have been keeping in touch through e-mail and Instant Messenger. He came home for the holidays and it felt like it couldn't be better. Any feelings that had vanished from not seeing him flooded back. We started hangin out and I new he had drug habits but as long as I didn't see him doing it I didn't think much of it.I knew he had a girlfriend and they were having issues and I was hoping that he wouldl leave her for me, which left me with a guilty conscience but I really thought it would be best that way. I wanted to be with him New Years, I assumed his gurlfriend was in another state but she had come to see him. So I drove over an hour to get to this party and he's there with her but they weren't acting like much of a couple but that was their business obviously. So the problem is I have strong feelings for this guy and I don't know what to do about it. He blew me off twice that day to go smoke weed and even though he didn't do it intentionally it still bothered me and when I got to this party he was high drunk and drinking and when I left the party a few hours later I was crying cause it hurt me to see him so smashed, but I care about him a lot and I want our relationship to go somewhere. What is going to happen? What should I do?? Thank you sooo much!
