What about the bunkbed? Is today the day?
Maybe you could build a bed of your own design out of the pieces.

It depends about my sister we have to share a bedroom I have a sister and two brothers and 3 rooms one for me and my sister one for my mum and one for my two brothers we have a tiny house and me and my sister have a tiny box room :(

So that is just sort of a wish... nothing wrong with having something like that to plan, even if it never happens, just a way to put all your grief in one 'thing' when it's too big to deal with.
You might have some better ideas. Something you can bury in the yard?
How old is your sister? Do you get along; are you friends?

My sister is 17 coming up 18 and we get along just fine cause she is like me and my rabbit will die soon he's very very very old and ill be burying him

Oh, your dear old rabbit! I meant something from your dad, a picture or piece out of the bunkbed, something symbolic. Hope I'm not being too symbolic about everything.
It's just that when your feelings are so huge about someone, a symbolic item or act helps concentrate them into something specific.

I'm glad you and your sister have each other. Does she finish high school this coming summer? What are her plans? Something else you have to prepare for; maybe her not being around as much?

I don't know we haven't thought about it yesterday and I have nothing of my dad's I really miss my grandfather he died when I was very young :'(

Yet* not yesterday sorry about that haha auto correct

He was like the dad I never had he was everything to me

Make a little shrine to your grandfather, a shelf in your room, a plant in the yard... with little mementos for him, even if they weren't his. A little place to look at while you think good thoughts or light a candle.
Splinter off some of the bunkbed your dad made and bury it (since it doesn't sound like you are going to wreck it), and write a poem to recite after you do. Write about how you will be free of how he treated you and your family. That he isn't you, and you aren't him, and you have made your grandfather your honorary father. Or go throw it in a river and watch it float away.
(Again-tell me if I'm too symbolic.)
What do you and your sister talk about?

Anything basically and I have a red rose for my grandad out the back garden red roses are his favroute and I have like a photo of him that I could bury and I'm going to write a poem and post it on here for you to see

Hi miss you poem
I love the fact you were always there for me,
When I cried you would put a smile on my face,
You were there quick as a flash just like a father could be,

Even though you're gone I still feel you here with me every step of the way,
I cry and feel your warmth here right by me,
I wish you never went away,

You filled my life with joy,
Made me smile the whole time,
When someone tried to hurt me you would say oi,

My life is so empty,
I wish you were here,
I'm going crazy.

What a sweet poem! That's how I felt about my dad too. Thank you for writing it!

Nice.
I had a sweet dad. I wrote one little poem, but mainly I talk to him in my mind or sometimes outloud. He liked to joke (in a quiet way, quiet man all around) so if I hear something funny, I say 'oh you would have loved that.'

WOW, this thread has had over 1,000 views.

This was about my grandad my dad is horrable but thanks anyway

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The poem is good for each person to remember the wonderful man in her life -- boyfriend, brother, husband, father, uncle, grandfather.

We know. We are talking about our dads, but know your dad was horrible, and the poem is for your graddad.

Thanks

That's a lot of views

Im starting to get a little more sleep now I've starting reading and soon I hope to redecorate my room but I teally want

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Im starting to get a little more sleep now ive starting reading and soon i hope to redecorate my room but i teally want

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Realy* want to move sorry about that
My phone is messing up

Keep coming back here, and let us know more, and maybe give advice to other teens.

Ok thanks for your help :)

Why couldn't you be there for me,
You should have meant lots to me,
From the time I was born why couldn't you let me be free,

You put me in pain,
Made my life miserable,
You wouldn't let go of the rein.
Even though I hate you, you are still my dad what ever happens.