My past is ruining my present.
I have been with my husband for about a year now but only married for a few weeks. He has always been insecure about my past…It's not pretty and I am not proud. I have my skeletons but I have always been honest and I want nothing more than his trust. He has always dug and always questioned, it bothered me but he was going to be my husband (and now is) and he has a right to know. I just worry the more he digs the more he will wish he didn't. I was promiscuous in my past and I have admitted that to him. But I have never done anything within the life of our relationship to even give him the slightest thought that I would ever cheat or that I miss that life…I don't miss it. I love the life I have now, and I want nothing more than to be the family we are now till we are old and gray. I love him, and that's something I have never felt before, always searched for but never found. But he can not handle it. He calls me names and puts me down every chance he gets. At one point he even told me that he would never have married me or even continued to date me if he knew everything he knows now. He acts as though he hates me and I am having a hard time dealing with it. I just wish he loved me for the girl he fell in love with, the girl I am. But no, he is embarrassed by me. He said he doesn't want anyone else to know because he doesn't want them to think he was stupid enough to marry a whore. I need help. I want to save this marriage but it seems like the only thing that will is impossible…changing my past. What can I do? :confused: