jodybranch
Jun 8, 2007, 01:17 PM
I have been with him for 7 years. Let me break down what has happened without having to write an essay. He comes from a Christian background so I thought he was good.
From the start he used to cancel plans, not show up, wanted to party with his friends. I forgave him because he was married and had kids so young so I knew he missed out on all that. I tried to be understanding. This went on we would break up, get back together... anyway, we got married and he only asked because I broke up with him and was seeing someone else. He was good for a while afterwards until 3 months went by. He them started the same stuff over again. This is nothing compared to what was to come. We moved into a townhouse and I became pregnant. Everything was fine for a while until he started to stay after work late,blah,blah. I got this bad feeling so I went into his e-mail ad found mails to a girl telling her how cute she was and if she ever broke up with her boyfriend to call him. Told her he could not wait till his ex-GIRLFRIEND (wife) left the house and was hating it. Never mentioned he had a child on the way. After that so many things happened that I would have to write a book. To sum it up he was never home, stayed out all night, ignored me, hateful. Anyway, I had our daughter and he went to Vegas the same weekend I returned home. I found out later from his children from his previous marriage that he had a girlfriend. I took care of our daughter by myself pretty much. He did help financially but then we started sleeping together (yes I know, I was just soon lonely. Never felt that way in my whole life) and we got back together. We broke up again... anyway after a bunch of stuff I started dating another guy and he freaked out. Then he loved me, had to be with me. After months of begging I went back. 2 weeks later he told me it was a mistake. I moved out again. Recently I moved back in for financial reasons since I was staying at home. Ever since he has entering to make it work. He really has. But I don't think I want it. The hard thing is its hard when you have a 2 year old that loves her daddy. How do I take away from her having her daddy every night? It is comfortable but the past is a lot to take a forgive. I keep being told that God would not want us to divorce and I feel bad. Am I being selfish now that he is trying to change and go to church? I don't know what to do. If you need more details let me know. I just could not include everything.
From the start he used to cancel plans, not show up, wanted to party with his friends. I forgave him because he was married and had kids so young so I knew he missed out on all that. I tried to be understanding. This went on we would break up, get back together... anyway, we got married and he only asked because I broke up with him and was seeing someone else. He was good for a while afterwards until 3 months went by. He them started the same stuff over again. This is nothing compared to what was to come. We moved into a townhouse and I became pregnant. Everything was fine for a while until he started to stay after work late,blah,blah. I got this bad feeling so I went into his e-mail ad found mails to a girl telling her how cute she was and if she ever broke up with her boyfriend to call him. Told her he could not wait till his ex-GIRLFRIEND (wife) left the house and was hating it. Never mentioned he had a child on the way. After that so many things happened that I would have to write a book. To sum it up he was never home, stayed out all night, ignored me, hateful. Anyway, I had our daughter and he went to Vegas the same weekend I returned home. I found out later from his children from his previous marriage that he had a girlfriend. I took care of our daughter by myself pretty much. He did help financially but then we started sleeping together (yes I know, I was just soon lonely. Never felt that way in my whole life) and we got back together. We broke up again... anyway after a bunch of stuff I started dating another guy and he freaked out. Then he loved me, had to be with me. After months of begging I went back. 2 weeks later he told me it was a mistake. I moved out again. Recently I moved back in for financial reasons since I was staying at home. Ever since he has entering to make it work. He really has. But I don't think I want it. The hard thing is its hard when you have a 2 year old that loves her daddy. How do I take away from her having her daddy every night? It is comfortable but the past is a lot to take a forgive. I keep being told that God would not want us to divorce and I feel bad. Am I being selfish now that he is trying to change and go to church? I don't know what to do. If you need more details let me know. I just could not include everything.