Well I had a post a little bit ago. My post was how my girlfriend left me because I have HPV she never showed signs and she lost sexual attraction with me. I think this is the worst thing that can happen. Its never happened to me before and I'm so confused and heart broken. But she started to talk to a new guy real soon after we broke up almost instantly. He's been friends with her for 4 years and has been in and out of a relationship with this girl he loves for 2 years. Well his ex girlfriend sends me a message on myspace saying my ex cheated on me with him. BUt after I went over there and talked to her last Sunday it wasn't true but they were seeing each other which she never told me about even when I was still coming over on weekends to chill with her family. Which she doesn't mind but she went out with him a few times and I alsao found out they had sex 2 times. This makes me feel worse only because I haven't had sex with her for 6 months and she goes out and can get laid so easy and like doesn't seem to care about me anymore. Even though we stay friends and all. But now this guy says I was causing too much drama wich was started by his ex girlfriend. So now he ran back to his ex girlfriend and pretty much used my ex for . But I intercepted a message she sent to his brother and she even says I maybe always around but it doesn't matter she's not getting back with me and I will figure that out one day. So I sit her even more upset. I tried to talk to her today but she was at the park with another guy that she says is a friend. She can't be alone that's her problem and its so easy for her to get a new guy. Im pretty much venting here. I still want to be her friend.

You have serious problem about your self-esteem. C'mon, go out and meet other girls, tons are better than her. YOu want to be her friend so that you get hurt every time you saw her? Isn't it enough pain for you?? Don't be desperate, man!

Yeah I'm starting to really let go now