After all this help and people I've talked too I really like grammadidi an her advice thank you but I really don't think that people are going to be able to help me. I used to talk to my boyfriend until like yesterday when he said that what I tell him gets old because I talk about my mother all the time and that's my worst fear to get rejected by someone I talk to or want to talk to . So I don't think I'm going to be able to get help for anything I can't see myself not worrying anymore or feeling guilt or feeling bad anymore so you know I think ending this, my life would be the best solution for me and for everyone else.

No boy is worth that. TRUST ME! I have had this same talk with 2 other girls and both of them have since gotten married to wonderful men who give them the world. All guys aren't dirt and there is someone special waiting on you... but until you find him you cannot let these other boys get you down.

Don't give your life for some boy. I wouldn't do it for a girl. And its true boys aren't all bad. Im a nice kid, I'm sure you have a lot of nice boys around.