SamberlyStevens
Jan 27, 2016, 08:02 PM
Hi everyone. I just want to start by saying this is a long one and I truly need help with this. Some background information : I am a 22 year old woman, I suffered from a head injury over a year ago and I am still in treatment. I was previously diagnosed with depression in my teen years but have been healthy and off medication for over a year. The only medication I take is benadryl when I have a severe migraine so I can fall asleep. I also do not drink anything with caffeine because I have severe reactions to it. One soda at 9am will result in me being awake for a full night. So let me get to my question...
My whole life I have been a vivid dreamer. I dream in color and can remember most of my dreams from every single night. When I dream, I know I am dreaming. Sometimes I can control what's happening and other times I can not. I know dreams are an iffy topic with most people so please bear with me.
I can only describe what is happening with levels. And the deeper I go the more I cannot control what is going, the more emotions I feel, the more I cannot remember important people or things and the harder it is to wake up. Yet I KNOW I am dreaming. The deeper I go the more nightmares. I cannot control the depths or levels I get to in my dreams.
Lately its been getting much worse. I have periods with worse dreams than other but those times pass and the nightmares go away for some time. However lately they are progressively getting worse and there is no signs of stopping. I normally pinch myself if I know a dream is going too far. This sometimes results in bruises but mostly I wake up. More so now, I can't wake up. And I know I can't. I'm stuck and many times I have had my boyfriend wake me up because I was screaming or moving around and he knew I couldn't do it myself.
I'm getting scared from these dreams. Many block memories and distort my emotions. Waking up with bruises isn't fun either. My boyfriend and I have lived together for over a year and I can have dreams where I don't know him when he shows up. Its awful and the time in my dreams are very different, they feel like days or weeks at most. It can sometimes feel like a separate life and that's why I tend to stop during times in the day and tell myself I am awake and aware. It helps but now I am doing it inside my dreams too. Its scary.
I've been doing research on this for awhile and people say you cannot read in dreams. This comforted me because I could tell if I was dreaming that way. But somehow I can read in my dreams and it scares me because you're not supposed to are you?
I don't know what to do anymore. I can only sleep when my boyfriend is home because I'm afraid of not being able to wake up. The emotional tole my dreams take on me are exhausting and losing memories in dreams is terrifying. I just need some advice I guess. I have no idea how to handle this anymore.
Extra info: I sleep in the yearning position and free fall position. I don't eat or drink before bed. I have had sleep paralysis twice but I do not think its much of a link. Sleep next to boyfriend and 2 cats. Wake up maybe once a night for bathroom. No melatonin pills.
My whole life I have been a vivid dreamer. I dream in color and can remember most of my dreams from every single night. When I dream, I know I am dreaming. Sometimes I can control what's happening and other times I can not. I know dreams are an iffy topic with most people so please bear with me.
I can only describe what is happening with levels. And the deeper I go the more I cannot control what is going, the more emotions I feel, the more I cannot remember important people or things and the harder it is to wake up. Yet I KNOW I am dreaming. The deeper I go the more nightmares. I cannot control the depths or levels I get to in my dreams.
Lately its been getting much worse. I have periods with worse dreams than other but those times pass and the nightmares go away for some time. However lately they are progressively getting worse and there is no signs of stopping. I normally pinch myself if I know a dream is going too far. This sometimes results in bruises but mostly I wake up. More so now, I can't wake up. And I know I can't. I'm stuck and many times I have had my boyfriend wake me up because I was screaming or moving around and he knew I couldn't do it myself.
I'm getting scared from these dreams. Many block memories and distort my emotions. Waking up with bruises isn't fun either. My boyfriend and I have lived together for over a year and I can have dreams where I don't know him when he shows up. Its awful and the time in my dreams are very different, they feel like days or weeks at most. It can sometimes feel like a separate life and that's why I tend to stop during times in the day and tell myself I am awake and aware. It helps but now I am doing it inside my dreams too. Its scary.
I've been doing research on this for awhile and people say you cannot read in dreams. This comforted me because I could tell if I was dreaming that way. But somehow I can read in my dreams and it scares me because you're not supposed to are you?
I don't know what to do anymore. I can only sleep when my boyfriend is home because I'm afraid of not being able to wake up. The emotional tole my dreams take on me are exhausting and losing memories in dreams is terrifying. I just need some advice I guess. I have no idea how to handle this anymore.
Extra info: I sleep in the yearning position and free fall position. I don't eat or drink before bed. I have had sleep paralysis twice but I do not think its much of a link. Sleep next to boyfriend and 2 cats. Wake up maybe once a night for bathroom. No melatonin pills.