TsutaShine
Oct 31, 2014, 07:15 AM
This is my first year taking the IBDP in Hong Kong, I take visual arts higher level for group 6 and I really really regret taking this huge risk.
HL requires us to finish 8-13 studio work, along with doing comparative study and more, it requires us to use up all of our spare time to think of every concept for our work.
I wasn't born or trained with creativity, and I pretended I was the whole time, I forced myself to take arts class and it's the worst mistake I've made, in these 2 months my teacher did not have high hopes for me at all, she does appreciate my hard-working attitude but today she warned me that in my current state, I can no longer study art by November because of my lack of creativity or qualitative concepts, she suggested to 'end the suffering'
The thing is that throughout my junior high school years I knew I wasn't built for studying art, and I did have the option to drop the subject back then, but I was stubborn enough to continue it somehow, now I no longer have the option to drop it. The first 2 years was hard enough already, I tend to get emotional breakdowns (crying) whenever I get criticized.
I did expect it would be more difficult this year, but after pulling all nighters 3 nights in a row, it is ridiculous, the words my teacher said to me this afternoon did a number on me, it was too much for me to handle so I had an emotional breakdown longer than usual, I know I have to give up at this point, there was no other way to continue on.
Now I realized that I have no interest in arts and there is no way I can do better, my teacher is fed up with me and she was right. However since I didn't have the option to drop the subject and coincidentally my parents arranged for me to study in Melbourne, transferring was my only option.
Regardless, I love the IBDP other than the arts class, now I have 9 months left to study in Hong Kong and I have to find ways to put up with my teacher. I don't want my art teacher to be the reason of me getting depression. How can I at least survive this year?
HL requires us to finish 8-13 studio work, along with doing comparative study and more, it requires us to use up all of our spare time to think of every concept for our work.
I wasn't born or trained with creativity, and I pretended I was the whole time, I forced myself to take arts class and it's the worst mistake I've made, in these 2 months my teacher did not have high hopes for me at all, she does appreciate my hard-working attitude but today she warned me that in my current state, I can no longer study art by November because of my lack of creativity or qualitative concepts, she suggested to 'end the suffering'
The thing is that throughout my junior high school years I knew I wasn't built for studying art, and I did have the option to drop the subject back then, but I was stubborn enough to continue it somehow, now I no longer have the option to drop it. The first 2 years was hard enough already, I tend to get emotional breakdowns (crying) whenever I get criticized.
I did expect it would be more difficult this year, but after pulling all nighters 3 nights in a row, it is ridiculous, the words my teacher said to me this afternoon did a number on me, it was too much for me to handle so I had an emotional breakdown longer than usual, I know I have to give up at this point, there was no other way to continue on.
Now I realized that I have no interest in arts and there is no way I can do better, my teacher is fed up with me and she was right. However since I didn't have the option to drop the subject and coincidentally my parents arranged for me to study in Melbourne, transferring was my only option.
Regardless, I love the IBDP other than the arts class, now I have 9 months left to study in Hong Kong and I have to find ways to put up with my teacher. I don't want my art teacher to be the reason of me getting depression. How can I at least survive this year?