I cry every night to bed, and about to have complete emotional breakdown. My mom ever since 11th grade, ignores when I speak to her, embarrasses me in front of my good friend, can't give me a car, and says she wished she never had me and she would have enjoyed herself if I would not be born. She cussed in front of my friend today multiple times, I was about to just run and hide. She almost chocked me and pushed me when I wanted to speak to her and said get out I don't want to see you. She not once went to college visits with me, even though I am a smart kid in school, and take the hardest classes. She always says other kids are better and I am just a bad one (other kids=kids she never heard of just makes it up). She tries every single day to find something and hurt me more and more painfully, until I could feel like almost crying and suicide. I never attempted, but I am not in a good place, and I don't think I can take more. She says little things that break my heart. Please help me, I beg you. What can I do? I am trying to run away tomorrow. She said she doesn't want me, but then when I say can I live in another state for university she says no because she cant control me (apparently when I need it). I am a boring 18 year old who doesn't go out as much because of money, and never goes to parties.

What is your question?

So you have a good job, and can afford to pay all your own bills ?

Assuming you are 18, then get a job, pay your own bills and move out. But I don't think you are going to find life is easier than it was at home with your parents. Particularly since you will have no work experience and thus little value to employers and your pay will be low for years to come.

Go on to college and get a job. Start saving your money.
It is foolish to run away with no money no job and no place to go.