According to my doctor that I need to see a therapist and a psychiatrist. Although I think mom is convinced that I fine and I don't need medicine or she is too busy to find one for me. I'm not sure what is happening because my mom cares a lot for me so this is weird. So looks like I won't be getting these very soon before college starts. I always made up love stories in my head. Most of them gave me the usual butterflies and get upset when I realized that I never had a boyfriend or a first kiss usual teenage dram. Then recently my worries about the future and feeling like a failure kicked in. Usual college worries. Normal I guess. Then I started judging myself with my friendships. Afraid to start conversations. Then I started imagining sad love stories when ever I was alone in bed that leave me balling in bed. It stopped for a while but it kicked in again even more severe so now since I had my first kiss with a guy I just met at a 3 day convention. I thought that our relationship would continue but I ended it on the last day of the event thinking he was only after sex maybe he was? I didn't feel depressed or sad about it more happy that it happened. For a weeks I was floating but now I'm crying every night because I feel lonely again. Is there anything I can do to help me feel better till I can get help?

Follow your doctors advice, you did not say your age, but if you are in college, find your own doctors

You are just over thinking things. Be happy with what you have and time will come things will come on your way. Be patient and don't rush things in life.

If you escaped much of the drama involved in high school relationships than count yourself lucky. Going beyond public school will allow you to find people who are more compatible with you as friends and lovers. I found that I have little to no contact with the people who I when to school with but more with the people I went to university with.

You don't need anyone to validate your feelings. You're feeling them for a specific reason that you may or may not be aware of. The best part is that it can't rain all the time. Feel what you need to feel and journal it. Accept that you're feeling this way and that it is valid. There is nothing wrong with it. It will go away faster if you experience it rather than suppress it.

Good luck.