I know I mess up bad. My boyfriend and I have been together for nearly 2 years. Things have been kind of rough but also pretty good for the last few months. I found out that he made up a dating profile after we got into an argument. I confronted him about it and eventually he took it down. It was his birthday this last weekend. I told him I had plans for him, and that I wanted to take care and make it the best possible! I invited whom I thought would like to come to brunch with us Sunday morning since this was his birthday. Saturday was my sisters baby shower which we agreed we would do it.
A friend of his thought it would be fun to get VIP at a strip club, so again I said I would try to make it fun and invite people. While at the strip club I tried to get people to chip in and help get him a private dance. I had a few too many drinks and I something flipped in me and I snapped. When the girls were giving him a private dance I got jealous and mad. I basically ruined his birthday and our plans to go out to the nice brunch that I ended up canceling. And now I feel I am losing him too! He has every right in the world to be mad at me! Id be mad at me. I want to make things right with him! I just don't know if I should back off for a while and give him space, or the plans of me taking him to the mountains for the night to get away would be a better idea. His sister came into town today for the summer, and she means the world to him. I know he will want to spend tons of time with her. Im feeling very lost...

"He has every right in the world to be mad at me! I'd be mad at me."

You said it. Apologize and give him some time. You started making the weekend about your boyfriend and then violently made the weekend about you. I would be ticked as well. A night in the mountains is only a good idea when things are back to normal, should they get back to normal. Learn from this. Drama free relationships are much better than ones with drama.