Okay this is very embarrassing but my guilt has been driving me wild. So.. I moved in with my two best friends in November 2013. We share a room, a bunk bed and a regular bed. We are close. We talk/tell about everything including masturbation. We joke and mess around but not really sexually like its more playful like grab boobs and butt, no really sexual. Now... I've lied about how much I masturbate. I usually do it when they are asleep at night or in the morning or alone. Occasionally when one of them is gone and the other is in the top bunk doing whatever. I kind of feel guilty about it but I can forgive myself. I do it like once a day out of boredom really.

To the disturbing part... I'm so ashamed and terribly guilty. A few days ago I masturbated while one of them was in my bed. I feel so bad. What makes it worse, I've done it before, I can only remember a few days and another time I've done it, but I'm pretty sure I've done it a few times, but my brain tends to block things so whatever. I'm not a perverted person and I feel so damn guilty and feel like I can't confide in anyone. They are my bestfriends and it has nothing to do with me being sexually attracted to them like I said I do it because I'm bored.

How do I deal and what can help me with this guilt? Am I freaking crazy? Help I feel like a criminal. I'm 16 by the way they are 15 and 13.

Do you feel guilty about masturbating or about masturbating when they are around? Have you been raised to believe masturbation is wrong?

The latter. Like I said I'm not very sexual and do it because I'm bored. I see nothing wrong with masturbating and I started puberty pretty late. I wasn't raised to see it as wrong or right. Its just the fact that I've done it when they were in my bed or the reverse

You aren't crazy, just trying to handle something beyond your maturity level. The real issue is what you have chosen to do with your time, and when. Of course you feel guilty but its unnecessary, since you simply can change what you do when you get bored. Entertain yourself with other things besides yourself, and scratch the itch in private.

Thanks I agree this whole behavior just been off for me . It like its just become habit. Thanks again

So.. I moved in with my two best friends in November 2013.

I'm 16 by the way they are 15 and 13.

This raises questions. How does a 16 year old move in with a 15 and 13 year old? Where are your parents, their parents, any adults in this?

As far as the masturbation issue. Are you saying that you did it while they were in your bed with you? Do you think that them lying with you aroused you? Is that why you are ashamed?

Im originally from Germany and my family is there. Im half german . I had a guardian but she was emotionally abusive so I moved in with my best friends family. Yes we do have adults.

Yeah a few times. Nope not aroused at all I'm straight its just become a habit . Im ashamed because its gross that I or anyone would do that lol

I think we get your point, no need to keep repeating it. :D