I feel like my life is such a waste, all I do is make everyone around me feel sad or angry. I don't want to be here anymore. I hate being around people I wish they would all go away. I try not to think like this but I can't snap out of it! I lay in bed at night and think bad thoughts and I can't stop myself. They would all be better of with out me in their lives.

Are you seeing the counselor?

Are you seeing the counselor?
Yes I still go I don't have a choice. I don't see the point I just feel uncomfortable going I feel stupid sitting there. What's the point I don't want to talk to her

Tell her what you posted here. I double dare you!! She needs to know this.

Tell her what you posted here. I double dare you!! She needs to know this.
Your probably right but I hate going there and I don't like her! I hate getting asked stupid questions and I don't want to talk about myself. I don't want to feel like this and I wish I could stop these thoughts I don't want to be around my family I wish I had no family it would make things easier for them and me

Are you taking your meds like you are supposed to?

Oh, and be sure to tell her you are uncomfortable and do not like meeting with her. (I heard worse from a couple of my clients.) You are not supposed to LIKE counseling. It isn't a tea party.

Are you taking your meds like you are supposed to?

Oh, and be sure to tell her you are uncomfortable and do not like meeting with her. (I heard worse from a couple of my clients.) You are not supposed to LIKE counseling. It isn't a tea party.
No I don't want to they make me feel sick mum makes me take them In Front of her but I just pretend I do then spit it out. It doesn't matter if I tell her I don't like meeting with her I have no choice I don't get to make any choices in my life! I'm just a burden to my mum and she doesn't deserve it none of them need to put up with me. I wish I didn't care about them would make things easier

Yes, you are making choices. But nothing will get easier until you start cooperating. You really want to be miserable for the rest of your life? And now you are turning into a liar. You are much better than that! That is NOT who you really are! If the meds don't work for you, there are others to try. Tell your mom and the doctor.

Have you been going to school?

Yes, you are making choices. But nothing will get easier until you start cooperating. You really want to be miserable for the rest of your life? And now you are turning into a liar. You are much better than that! That is NOT who you really are! If the meds don't work for you, there are others to try. Tell your mom and the doctor.
I don't want to be miserable for the rest of my life I was fine before I don't understand why I feel like this now. I don't care if I'm a liar I don't want to take any more medication I don't want to bother my mum with my stupid little problems. Your right I am making choices not ones I want to make but ones I get forced to because I have to. My mum lies to me what's the difference?

Have you been going to school?
No still on holidays until next Tuesday, not looking forward to that

I don't need to bother anyone with my problems don't know why I keep posting on this site. I am just a waste of time heaps of people have more problems than me I'm just a stupid teenager ill get over it.

Sooooo, your mom lies to you (about what?), so therefore you will lie to her. Hmmmmm. What's wrong with this picture? Oh, and you lied to all of us too. I understand why, but can't you see how you are hurting yourself? -- yourself far more than anyone else?

What can we do to help you get back on track?

I don't need to bother anyone with my problems don't know why I keep posting on this site. I am just a waste of time heaps of people have more problems than me I'm just a stupid teenager ill get over it.
You post here because you LIKE us and know we make sense and won't lie to you. P.S. I was once a stupid teenager and even now at the age of 68 have never stopped kicking myself for not doing something I should have done.

Sooooo, your mom lies to you (about what?), so therefore you will lie to her. Hmmmmm. What's wrong with this picture? Oh, and you lied to all of us too. I understand why, but can't you see how you are hurting yourself? -- yourself far more than anyone else?

What can we do to help you get back on track?
Can someone just explain to me how taking medication will help me how talking to a counsellor will help me? I asked mum and she just said because it will. I don't care if I hurt myself I. Just sick of hurting everyone around me. I don't like lying and I hate being lied to but I didn't feel like I had any other choice! I don't know what I should do I tried the medication I tried talking to councillor but it just made me feel worse. I don't want to feel anything anymore

You haven't given the meds and the counseling enough time. How long have you been on the meds? and how many times have you gone to the counselor? Rome was not built in a day. You don't mix up cupcake batter, pour it into the little paper cups, and then take them out of the oven when they are halfway done. You are patient and wait and do it right. And no one is lying to you.

You haven't given the meds and the counseling enough time. How long have you been on the meds? and how many times have you gone to the counselor? Rome was not built in a day. You don't mix up cupcake batter, pour it into the little paper cups, and then take them out of the oven when they are halfway done. You are patient and wait and do it right. And no one is lying to you.
I took them for 2 weeks and I've been to counselling a few times now. It's a waste of time all of it, it doesn't help. I don't want to talk about it I just want to forget about it. I want to be like I use to be I don't understand why I feel like this I just feel all this pressure take your pills talk to a councillor my head wants to explode. I wish I could disappear but that's not going to happen! My mum lied to me I did something and she found out and she said she wouldn't tell anyone and she lied she did tell and now she made things worse.

Think I just need a good slap in the face maybe that might snap me out of it. I will start taking these stupid pills for longer and see if they work but I don't want to talk I hate it you try being in a room where someone stares at you and ask you questions it freaks me out I dread going. I don't see how being forced to do something I hate will help!

C'mon! You were a mess before you even told her. And the meds take at least four to five weeks to start working. AND you haven't even gotten to first base with the counseling.

Get back in the game and hit a home run!

C'mon! You were a mess before you even told her. And the meds take at least four to five weeks to start working. AND you haven't even gotten to first base with the counseling.

Get back in the game and hit a home run!
4-5 weeks that's a long time :( counselling sucks but like I said I have no choice the only choice I have there is if I talk or not. I told my mum that for my sister I know that was right and I know I had to report it, but I trusted my mum when she found out something's and I talked to her about it and she promised she wouldn't tell and she did she told the counsellor and the doctor and she made everything worse she promised she wouldn't and she lied how am I suppose to trust her now. I hate that she even found out my fault but she lied to me

4 or 5 weeks is nothing... I've spent longer than that deciding what underwear to buy...

Nothing is going to change unless you go... do you really want things to stay as they are? I don't think you do.

I asked a question that I already know the answer of its simple take my meds and go to counselling. I've just read everything I've wrote and I haven't given anything a try really I've just complained that I don't want to feel like this but not done anything to help myself just the opposite I suppose I'm my own problem. Thanks every time I come on here I always seem to get a reality check. I need to suck it up and do this

Nobody WANTS to feel like that... just so you know... but like taking medicine that tastes bad... sometimes you need to do something unpleasant to get better. One of those life lessons you learn as you are growing up... as you are doing now.

Nobody WANTS to feel like that... just so you know... but like taking medicine that tastes bad... sometimes you need to do something unpleasant to get better. One of those life lessons you learn as you are growing up... as you are doing now.
Think that's something I need to get tattooed to my brain sometimes we need to do something unpleasant to get better! Life lessons wish I could skip that class makes me feel mental lol

I asked a question that I already know the answer of its simple take my meds and go to counselling. I've just read everything I've wrote and I haven't given anything a try really I've just complained that I don't want to feel like this but not done anything to help myself just the opposite I suppose I'm my own problem. Thanks every time I come on here I always seem to get a reality check. I need to suck it up and do this
And this is why I like you so much!

And this is why I like you so much!
Lol because I complain so much then realise how silly I really am being. Think I just need to give myself a good kick up the butt. Thanks for listening to my constant babble helps for me to get it out of my head so I can realise how silly I'm being.

I wanted to put this quote out last night but didn't get time.

What does not kill me, makes me stronger. Friedrich Nietzsche (https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/quotes/Friedrich_Nietzsche/), Twilight of the Idols, 1888
German philosopher (1844 - 1900)

Use that during the adversities in life you come across and it helps keep things in focus.

Its also the root of the more contemporary saying that going through difficulties helps build character.

People that live a charmed life as children are less equipped to deal with hardships as adults than young people who didn't. THe fact you have gives you a leg up on the others, so even as much pain as it causes you.....you can. and should use it to channel your energy into something that will be a positive for you in the long run. Courage, resolve...and inner strength.

Since I'm on a roll this moring withthe quotes....

When life hands you lemons......make lemonade.

I wanted to put this quote out last night but didn't get time.

What does not kill me, makes me stronger. Friedrich Nietzsche (https://www.askmehelpdesk.com/quotes/Friedrich_Nietzsche/), Twilight of the Idols, 1888
German philosopher (1844 - 1900)

Use that during the adversities in life you come across and it helps keep things in focus.

Its also the root of the more contemporary saying that going through difficulties helps build character.

People that live a charmed life as children are less equipped to deal with hardships as adults than young people who didn't. THe fact you have gives you a leg up on the others, so even as much pain as it causes you.....you can. and should use it to channel your energy into something that will be a positive for you in the long run. Courage, resolve...and inner strength.

Since I'm on a roll this moring withthe quotes....

When life hands you lemons......make lemonade.
Thanks I like the quotes thinks I will print them and stick them to my bedroom wall so when ever I feel down I can read them. :)

I feel really bad had a big fight with my mum, said something's I shouldn't have don't know what's wrong with me I shouldn't have done it. She hates me now bloody hell

I feel very guilty had a bad day and she yelled at me and I just lost it. Now she won't talk to me don't know what to do

I feel really bad had a big fight with my mum, said something's I shouldn't have don't know what's wrong with me I shouldn't have done it. She hates me now bloody hell

I feel very guilty had a bad day and she yelled at me and I just lost it. Now she won't talk to me don't know what to do

All you can do is apologize to her. Then the best thing is to leave her alone. She doesn't hate you, she just doesn't like what you said. Most likely she was hurt by what you said. But I guarantee you that she still loves you.

Even though we are parents, we still have feelings. Our children can hurt our feelings just like your friends can hurt your feelings. You have to give her time to get over her pain.

As a parent, our feelings get hurt as easily as yours do. The only difference is that we have to try to hide it so that our children are happy. Sometimes it's not that easy.

You see, I had an issue with my daughter this past weekend. She is 20, but still lives at home. She made a choice that was not very smart. She actually ended up ruining the Easter weekend for the entire family. Her father, mother (me), her little brother, grandparents, aunts and uncles. The bottom line was that her decisions affected the entire family, not just her. What I guess I am trying to say is that even though she made some bad choices, I still love her and will love her unconditionally. Your mother is the same way. While she may be upset with you now, she loves you to the moon and back. There is nothing she wouldn't do for you to be happy. However, you have to give her some space.

Tell her you love her and that you are sorry for what you said, then leave it at that. She will get over it. She loves you.

Noon, I doubt she hates you. I doubt anything short of saying you made everything up would cause any lasting negative feelings. She just needs time to calm down.

I am not surprised this happened because you are both in very emotional states. It's fairly common in dealing with the aftermath of a trauma like you have been through. It is something to sit down talk to your therapist about at your next meeting or if you can call her, over the phone. Breakdowns and blow-ups can lead to getting all sorts of negative emotions out where they can be seen and dealt with. Now you can see how dangerous it is to bottle them up.

Think of repressing negative emotions as filling a balloon. At some point the balloon will pop. Sometimes it is on its own. Sometimes a little outside pressure causes a rupture and all that air comes rushing out at once. That's what happened between you and your mother. You are both holding so much inside and something was bound to give. It will take a while to pick up the pieces of the balloon and dispose of it, but you will especially if you give opening up to your therapist a chance.

Tell your mother you love her and are sorry you blew-up and let her calm down enough to talk.

I hope she forgives me I feel so terrible, I really didn't mean to say them things to her I just couldn't stop myself. I don't blame her for going off at me I totally deserved it. Everything is such a big mess. I will apologise to her in the morning. I hope she doesn't stay mad at me to long. I feel like the worst person right now. Why can't things just be drama free for a while

I hope she forgives me I feel so terrible, I really didn't mean to say them things to her I just couldn't stop myself. I don't blame her for going off at me I totally deserved it. Everything is such a big mess. I will apologise to her in the morning. I hope she doesn't stay mad at me to long. I feel like the worst person right now. Why can't things just be drama free for a while
I'm a mom too and agree that she will forgive you. She knows you are in a bad place right now and are struggling. Be sure to do what you can to put your love and apology into action by doing chores without being told and to help out with other chores too. Be visible around the house and smile once in a while. :) And stop beating yourself up!

I don't know if she will except my apology I was very nasty I don't even know why I said those things. I know this sounds stupid but I really feel like I need to punish myself I hurt her I heard her crying, now I'm so angry at myself.

I don't know if she will except my apology I was very nasty I don't even know why I said those things. I know this sounds stupid but I really feel like I need to punish myself I hurt her I heard her crying, now I'm so angry at myself.
Stop piling on the guilt. And there's no reason to punish yourself. Y9u are already doing a great job of that. It may take her a day or two or three, but she loves you and will work it out. This is why the counselor is so important -- to air out all these feelings with someone who is unbiased and whose feelings you can't hurt. Pound on a pillow and scream at it, if you have to let loose. One of my clients bought a punching bag and hung it up in the garage. She found it to be very helpful when she got overwhelmed.

Well that apology was an epic fail she wouldn't even look at me she just went to work. I guess I deserved that. She makes me so angry she said so hurtful things to me to its not fair she yelled at me first she said some hurtful things so I said some hurtful things to her I know I shouldn't have but couldn't help myself it's like I had no control of my mouth. I did everything she wanted me to I went to the counsellor I talked to her told her how I was feeling then when she comes to pick me up she yells at me what does she expect from me what does she want because I have no idea anymore. I'm so angry I just want to hurt myself I know when she gets home I'm in big trouble I've smashed my mirror destroyed my room I'm so god damm frustrated. I just want to get away from her. I want to scream and cry. I'm not going to be here when she gets home from work I don't want to be near her then more I think about it the more angry I get

You have to remember two wrongs don't make a right. And what you are doing is not right. And as easy as it is to forget at your age. Other people do have lives and feelings. You have to always be aware of that.

When you find yourself at the bottom of a deep hole with a shovel in your hand... stop digging. We have another saying... Play with fire, expect to get burned.

Yell at people enough... you can certainly expect them to yell back. Particularly people who are above you in lifes pecking order... parents, boss, Teachers...

There are times in life where its appropriate to say certain things... there are lots more times where its not... and maintaining your silence is the most productive thing you can do.

You've got a lot to deal with... but you aren't alone, she does as well. So its NOT an excuse to just let it all out. Its very counter productive and instead of getting you want you want... it takes you further away from it.

Acting in this manner isn't taking to the goal of making you a stronger person... its making you weaker because you are giving in to the more immature side of your personality.

Yelling and misbehaving is the easy way out... it takes more inner strength and thought to not always react in that manner... knowing two people yelling only feed off each others anger (like throwing more logs on an already too large fire) and nothing positive ever comes out of it... its also disrespectful to do it to an elder or anyone in a position of higher authority. And whatever moral high ground you might have had on whatever issue it was... you end up giving up.

I know I shouldn't have yelled at her I do feel bad she is my mum I disrespected her let my feelings get the better of me. Why do I keep on doing this, she must be going through lots your right and I only keep thinking of myself. Sometimes I just don't think I am just thinking how mad I am at her she must be so hurt she's only ever been there for me. I know I have to give her time I hurt her my mum I love her. I've just made everything worse I really don't know what to do anymore. It's so confusing I don't know if cleaning the house doing things for her will be enough. I messed up big time.

Good rule of thumb... before you let loose with a tirade in anger... bite your lip and count to 100. You won't be as impulsive. It will take an effort to do... and its worth doing because you won't find yourself on the losing end nearly as much... and life will have a lot less drama. And yes a lot of people do cause themselves problems with how they interact with others. The good news it's a bad habit and a choice, one you can make the concience decision to change for the better.

You really are the master of your own destiny... the choices you make now and in the future will determine what options you have available to you beyond that time.

Good rule of thumb... before you let loose with a tirade in anger... bite your lip and count to 100. You won't be as impulsive. It will take an effort to do... and its worth doing because you won't find yourself on the losing end nearly as much... and life will have a lot less drama. And yes a lot of people do cause themselves problems with how they interact with others. The good news it's a bad habit and a choice, one you can make the concience decision to change for the better.

You really are the master of your own destiny... the choices you make now and in the future will determine what options you have available to you beyond that time.
It's done now nothing I can do about that I can't take it back. I need to move on remember she is my mum have some respect my god I use to be able to control myself I didn't speak to anyone for ages now its like I have no control of my emotions. I need to make this right. Thanks for the advise ill remember that count to 100 hope I don't give her a reason to yell or get mad at me again, it's my own fault she found out I wasn't taking my medication the councillor told her so I caused the whole thing I need to just do the right thing from now on. Why do I never think about these things

If she yells.. let her yell, don't yell back. Its hard for someone to have an argument by themself. By not yelling back... she will stop a LOT sooner. Try it... you will see I'm right. That's one way to defuse a situation where emotions are running high. Trust me...I have a temper myself....if anyone yells at me....my impulse is to yell back. But doing so most times would not be in my favor.

Are you finished beating yourself up? Okay. Take a couple of deep breaths. You're now taking your meds as prescribed. You're going to the counselor and actually talking and unloading. You're doing stuff around the house. You're playing with your little sis. All good. And we're still here cheering you on.

Funny that, I cause all these situations and then wonder why. Time to grow up stop being so selfish and thinking of myself your right its my choice how I go from here. I'll give her space do cleaning what ever I have to but I think I need to start listening to everyone around me and stop thinking I know what's best for me. I don't want to constantly think how stupid I am how I messed everything up I want to do the right thing from now on. I want to make her happy I want to be happy so I need to do as I'm told

Years ago when my two sons took karate, the first lesson was learning how to take a step BACK (and not punch the other guy). Taking a step back gives both a chance to rethink things. There's no immediate fight. So like someone earlier said, count to 100 or even just to 10 to give yourself a chance to regroup and not immediately fight back.

It does get easier as you do it. :) And when you do sound off, use "I" statements -- "I'm frustrated/angry/upset because...." or "I feel so...." Saying "you this" and "you that" is blaming and fires up more anger in both of you.

I'm not going to beat myself up anymore I'm going to think positive it's my life right I'm the only one who can make it better. So hard to remember that I let my emotions get the better of me and I need to stop that be more in control and more aware of the people around me. I want things to go up not down need to get my head straight. Thanks for all the advice wish I could just speak to my mum like this or had my friends to talk to but thank you all for being here to snap me out of it don't know what I would do if I didn't get the advice you all give me

Years ago when my two sons took karate, the first lesson was learning how to take a step BACK (and not punch the other guy). Taking a step back gives both a chance to rethink things. There's no immediate fight. So like someone earlier said, count to 100 or even just to 10 to give yourself a chance to regroup and not immediately fight back.

It does get easier as you do it. :) And when you do sound off, use "I" statements -- "I'm frustrated/angry/upset because...." or "I feel so...." Saying "you this" and "you that" is blaming and fires up more anger in both of you.
Thanks ill remember that it just made me angry that I opened up told the councillor how I was feeling that I wasn't taking my medication tried to do the right thing and then she told mum and then she yelled at me I get it though I lied to her she trusted me and I lied I really had no right to yell at her. I should have just not said anything lesson learnt. Time to make it right

Thanks ill remember that it just made me angry that I opened up told the councillor how I was feeling that I wasn't taking my medication tried to do the right thing and then she told mum
Clear this with the counselor -- does she report everything to someone, especially to your mum? In counseling school, we were taught that we had to clear it with even a minor client that we (or the client) needed to tell a parent or guardian about something from a session. I don't know the rules in your country and for this agency. You don't need to have your trust eroded by the counselor, too. It's important that you trust her, even if you don't like her.

Clear this with the counselor -- does she report everything to someone, especially to your mum? In counseling school, we were taught that we had to clear it with even a minor client that we (or the client) needed to tell a parent or guardian about something from a session. I don't know the rules in your country and for this agency. You don't need to have your trust eroded by the counselor, too. It's important that you trust her, even if you don't like her.
I knew she was going to tell mum she said she had to it was to do with my safety and I didn't want to tell her so she had to I said she could guess I was scared what she would say to me if I told her I was just mad because maybe I shouldn't have told her. But I guess mum needed to know just didn't want her to yell at me but I lied to her don't know what I expected her to do. The councillor said whatever I say to her is confidential unless it involves my safety or others, it's not like I said I wanted to kill myself. My own fault really should have just done what I was told to :(

I knew she was going to tell mum she said she had to it was to do with my safety and I didn't want to tell her so she had to I said she could guess I was scared what she would say to me if I told her I was just mad because maybe I shouldn't have told her. But I guess mum needed to know just didn't want her to yell at me but I lied to her don't know what I expected her to do. The councillor said whatever I say to her is confidential unless it involves my safety or others, it's not like I said I wanted to kill myself. My own fault really should have just done what I was told to :(
That makes me feel a lot better about your counselor. And now you're going to be very cooperative and make us all proud of you, right?????? ;)

That makes me feel a lot better about your counselor. And now you're going to be very cooperative and make us all proud of you, right?????? ;)
I'm making the decision to try its not like I wasn't trying guess I didn't think about facing the consequences of what I was doing before I totally deserved mum being angry but she didn't deserve me being angry at her. But yes I'm going to do everything I should take my medication talk to councillor be nice to mum anything I'm missing

Film making the decision to try its not like I wasn't trying guess I didn't think about facing the consequences of what I was doing before I totally deserved mum being angry but she didn't deserve me being angry at her. But yes I'm going to do everything I should take my medication talk to councillor be nice to mum anything I'm missing
Sounds good to me!

Sounds good to me!
Thank you it always amazes me how many people are willing to read my posts and give me advice it always makes me calm down and think about things properly and realise how silly I have been can't thank you all enough for that. :) now I better clean my room up and get ready for mum to be mad at me for breaking stuff consequences for my actions maybe I will learn one day

First day back at school wish it was still the holidays I really don't want to . I still got three hours before I have to catch the bus can't go for a run to clear my head because its pouring with rain outside. I really don't want to go back to school it's freaking me out the thought of having to deal with everything. I told mum yesterday I didn't want to go but she said I have to! I'm thinking of skipping but I have to at least go to home room or they text mum that I'm not at school. I don't know what to do I'm trying not to think about it just want to be able to get up and go.

Remember what I had said--you don't owe anyone an explanation. "Please respect me. I'll tell you when I'm able to."

Meanwhile, if you feel tapping on your shoulder, that'll be me. ;)

Remember what I had said--you don't owe anyone an explanation. "Please respect me. I'll tell you when I'm able to."

Meanwhile, if you feel tapping on your shoulder, that'll be me. ;)
Thanks I know I'm just over thinking things and freaking myself out :(

And think of all of us here cheering you on. You have a wonderful support group. Don't worry too much, and smile a LOT!

And think of all of us here cheering you on. You have a wonderful support group. Don't worry too much, and smile a LOT!
Thanks only hour and a half to go now I would have some breakfast to waste time but if I do I think I might be sick. Seriously don't even know why I so stressed out for its just school never bothered me before.

Ever have one of those moments when you wish you could turn back time! Wish I could do that. I don't know what's wrong with me it seems every choice I make is the wrong one I know in my head what I should be doing but always chose the easier option, which never really is the easy way as it always leads me to even more trouble. Wish I had someone who could just tell me what to do, don't suppose that would make a difference either though seeing as I don't really like it when people tell me what to do. Why are thing always so complicated or do I just make things complicated.

Ever have one of those moments when you wish you could turn back time!
All the time! But I forge ahead regardless and try not to do it again.

Why are thing always so complicated or do I just make things complicated.
Okay. Tell us. What is going on?

Everyone your age makes wrong decisions all the time... (that's what parents are there for, to help you learn to make the right ones). But adults make the wrong decisions as well... some more than others... I don't know ANY who have not made a bad decision in the last month or two much less the last year or more.

What matters more than the fact that you made a wrong decision... is that you learn from your mistakes to not make them a second or third time.

Believe me... there are adults that never learn that lesson. Look at people who have been married 3 or more times as one example.

Oh heck, 'YAWN', what else is new with you No one ?

Let me wave my wand and your family will go away, and you will be homeless, witih no money or connections. OK.

Have you ever seen homeless people on the streets of Toronto with their sleeping bags and pets with them. Oh, wait, now they are in parks but they still can't wash.

Oh, wait again, you dont like people, living in a park in a tent with a pet would not be for you. You would have to live under the Gardiner Expressway in the garbage with maybe Rob Ford.

Everyone your age makes wrong decisions all the time... (that's what parents are there for, to help you learn to make the right ones). But adults make the wrong decisions as well... some more than others... I don't know ANY who have not made a bad decision in the last month or two much less the last year or more.

What matters more than the fact that you made a wrong decision... is that you learn from your mistakes to not make them a second or third time.

Believe me... there are adults that never learn that lesson. Look at people who have been married 3 or more times as one example.
Well I guess it's nice to know I'm not the only person out there to make the wrong choices. I try to make the right decisions but I'm too much of a coward to do the hard things and always chose the easy way. And then I get myself into even worse situations. No wonder why my mum is so disappointed in me. God I hate that word I'd rather her be mad at me

Oh heck, 'YAWN', what else is new with you No one ?

Let me wave my wand and your family will go away, and you will be homeless, witih no money or connections. OK.

Have you ever seen homeless people on the streets of Toronto with their sleeping bags and pets with them. Oh, wait, now they are in parks but they still can't wash.

Oh, wait again, you dont like people, living in a park in a tent with a pet would not be for you. You would have to live under the Gardiner Expressway in the garbage with maybe Rob Ford.
I don't want my family to go away. I know I have a good life. I do like people. I don't want to be a burden to my family anymore just want to have the courage to make the right choices and not disappoint people in my life. I have seen homeless people and I appreciate the fact that I have a home to live in and are taken care of. I know some people are not so lucky and I shouldn't complain about my silly little problems thanks for reminding me that

I know some people are not so lucky and I shouldn't complain about my silly little problems thanks for reminding me that

You are welcome. Most of us here come from a simpler time and we had minor growing up problems, but we got through them to be fully functioning worthwhile adults. You will too.