Arroyojanice
Jan 9, 2014, 02:01 AM
Lately I have been feeling really unwanted and unloved by my boyfriend. I'm 18, and he is 20. We have been dating for 2 years now. I'm still in school and I'll be graduating this year and we plan on moving into an apartment together some time after I graduate. He works two jobs, so I barely get to see him. The unwanted feeling started about 2 months ago. He gets home from work late, maybe 11/12ish at night. I know he's worked all day but he can't even call me for 5 minutes.. He tells me he wants to marry me all the time, but he just doesn't show it.
Our agreements are that he sees me on his off days. He gets one off day a week, and the last couple of weeks I haven't seen him. The other day I wasn't sure if he had made it to work due to the snow storm we just had, so me being a good girlfriend , I called his job to see if he had made it and they told me yes, but they were closing early at 8:00pm. I called him. I text him. But no response. Not until 1 am. He claimed he had just gotten home from work. But he didn't know I called and knew they closed early... he lied to me. I don't know where he was and didn't bother to ask because I didn't want to argue. I felt so hurt. How could he lie to me? He didn't get me a Christmas present. I don't care about gifts but HOW COULD YOU NOT GIVE ME A CHRISTMAS PRESENT? I went all out with his gift! I made him a handmade scrapbook with all of our pictures, a nice coat, hat, gloves, Gucci cologne! And he didn't get my gift because he had no money. I COMPLETELY understand that. But Christmas was 3 weeks ago.
I feel like I give my all in our relationship. I call him every morning, every Chance I get and it's like he doesn't want to talk to me. The other day I found text messages in his phone from a girl he works with. My exclamation was, who is this girl? Why is she WANTING to talk to you outside of work? Why is she texting you at 2 am? He says she's just a friend and that she has two kids and a family. Then today, I see she has sent him pictures of herself? And he says "I don't know why she sent this" "I don't want anything to do with her". I punched him in the jaw (oops that was my immediate reaction) Then I started to cry and I asked him what would he do if he found something like that in my phone. I just felt so hurt. Was he with her the day his job closed early? He told me he loves me and just wants me to be happy and deleted her number. But that still doesn't do anything for me! She can still text him! Sex isn't a problem in our relationship. We have a lot of sex. And GREAT sex by the way.
Anyway... I just needed to rant. But I also need advice. I don't know what to do. I want to keep our relationship alive. I want to marry him one day and I love him so much, but he makes me feel unwanted, unloved and makes me feel like I can't trust him. Please help me save my relationship.
Our agreements are that he sees me on his off days. He gets one off day a week, and the last couple of weeks I haven't seen him. The other day I wasn't sure if he had made it to work due to the snow storm we just had, so me being a good girlfriend , I called his job to see if he had made it and they told me yes, but they were closing early at 8:00pm. I called him. I text him. But no response. Not until 1 am. He claimed he had just gotten home from work. But he didn't know I called and knew they closed early... he lied to me. I don't know where he was and didn't bother to ask because I didn't want to argue. I felt so hurt. How could he lie to me? He didn't get me a Christmas present. I don't care about gifts but HOW COULD YOU NOT GIVE ME A CHRISTMAS PRESENT? I went all out with his gift! I made him a handmade scrapbook with all of our pictures, a nice coat, hat, gloves, Gucci cologne! And he didn't get my gift because he had no money. I COMPLETELY understand that. But Christmas was 3 weeks ago.
I feel like I give my all in our relationship. I call him every morning, every Chance I get and it's like he doesn't want to talk to me. The other day I found text messages in his phone from a girl he works with. My exclamation was, who is this girl? Why is she WANTING to talk to you outside of work? Why is she texting you at 2 am? He says she's just a friend and that she has two kids and a family. Then today, I see she has sent him pictures of herself? And he says "I don't know why she sent this" "I don't want anything to do with her". I punched him in the jaw (oops that was my immediate reaction) Then I started to cry and I asked him what would he do if he found something like that in my phone. I just felt so hurt. Was he with her the day his job closed early? He told me he loves me and just wants me to be happy and deleted her number. But that still doesn't do anything for me! She can still text him! Sex isn't a problem in our relationship. We have a lot of sex. And GREAT sex by the way.
Anyway... I just needed to rant. But I also need advice. I don't know what to do. I want to keep our relationship alive. I want to marry him one day and I love him so much, but he makes me feel unwanted, unloved and makes me feel like I can't trust him. Please help me save my relationship.