Okay I'm 20 yrs my significant other is 20 he is finished his schooling and I am as well minus having to go back for some upgrading. First off I'm not suppose to be able to get pregnant as I've had a lot of stomach issues from past abuse causing permanent problems with pain in my abdomen. I was on birth control so was taking proper steps to keep from becoming pregnant just in that slight chance that I could. I am now about 8 weeks pregnant as a found out two nights ago.

My boyfriend and I have known each other since public school and now have been dating for about a year with a strong relationship as both our schooling co insides with one another. I took architecture and he took carpentry so we run his general carpentry business. Its slow as we just started it up but he also works in a framing company. I currently am not working in my field as I'm finding it hard to gain employment without three years of previous company experience so am working in a landscaping company as well as restaurant three days a week. The problem being I just started these two jobs this month, and now found out I'm pregnant. For the 8 weeks I've been pregnant I've not been able to eat or drink as I throw up everything and anything. I ended up in the hospital for throwing up blood and that was how we found out that I indeed was pregnant.The only reason we hadn't thought that earlier was because we had done three blood tests that had come back negative. I am an extremely high risk pregnancy as I was told by the doctor and require monitoring. The baby seems healthy from what I've been told but is causing me a lot of health problems and is endangering my health. The hospital kept me for three days as from being sick all the time I ripped something in my throat causing me to bleed.They had to get the nausea under control or I could choke on my own blood etc.They kept me on IV the whole time at the hospital and every so often redid blood tests to make sure I was okay.

My boyfriend and I have previously talked about if I got pregnant before we planned to have an abortion and I can't bring myself to look at an ultrasound I cry thinking about the whole situation. All because I know that it has a heart if the doctor had just said I was pregnant and left it at that I wouldn't feel so bad about an abortion. But I know its hearts beating strong and holding up even though I'm going through hell. I saw a glimpse of it and its just so tiny in there and fragile and living off me.

I fell behind financially about five months ago as I had a injury at a work place and never got the workers compensation for it as they don't see how a repetitive strain injury can come from using a compact air gun for 40 hours a week can cause it. My doctor says the vibrations in the gun caused it but I still got declined the workers comp. I had money but five months later it has dwindled from well the cost of living and no work. If I was working I might be able to keep the baby not easily but still would. Nothing is easy and I've never met a mother no matter what hell they have gone through feel regret from having their baby. I just started work at those two places listed above so have not caught back up and find myself wishing I could have got pregnant later after Id caught back up... Im also high risk for miscarriage.

My boyfriend and myself just moved into a huge room for rent to save money as we want to buy a home in 6months after 6months of employment you can get accepted... if I keep the baby I know that won't happen nor will I be able to finish my course upgrades to find better employment... Ill be stuck in a dead end job he'll make his money an I don't want money to become a problem between us.

He isn't verbalizing one way or another what he wants because honestly he said an abortion before but he also said when the doctor said I was pregnant he felt warm inside. And that night he felt closer to me because part of us was in my tummy. I'm not sure truly what he wants and I don't want us to regret it later but he constantly makes sure I'm okay now and keeps telling me little things so I don't hurt myself or the baby not sure if he's just worried about me or me and the baby but every time we talk its still an abortion so why does he keep worrying about the baby and me... I feel so lost and confused its like maybe he wants it maybe we want itbut know we'll lose everything we have worked for and we've come up from nothing and have no family but each other no supports but each other and really just want to get a head because our past lives weren't the greatest but we dug out and feel we'd do bad I don't know these are my thoughts right not his. I even thought of adoption but haven't talked to him about that yet, because I feel he'd rather keep it then give it up if it was going to beborn. But again I don't know what to do. I'm pretty much bed ridden from the pregnancy so far and in paina lot and in and out of the hospital. What hurts most is I think I could do this if wasn't injured 5 months ago

First, there is no 100% effective means of birth control. So even given your physical issues and taking birth control, it is still possible for you to have gotten pregnant as you have found out.

No one can advise you what to to do. Aborting a pregnancy is a very personal decision. I would strongly suggest that you seek counseling to help you. There may be response that tell you definitely not to get one or responses to go ahead with it. Please don't listen to either. Each such response is advising you from THEIR perspective. And YOU need to make this decision. Either way it will have an enormous impact on your life. An impact you need to be prepared to deal with.