Okay so a couple of days my classmate found a blade and gave it to me I didn't really use it for about half a day but in the afternoon I took it and tried to cut myself out curiosity, it did sting but you get used to it then I realize that I cut myself more than I intended now I give myself small cuts every night

Is It okay To Cut? I can stop myself if I want to anyway...

It isn't okay to cut.

From a physiological side of things each time you cut yourself you open yourself up to the possibility of infection, in the skin or even in the blood. Minuscule chance but there is a increased chance of catching something dangerous.

From a aesthetic point of view, skin scars. Scars don't go away, you'll have each and everyone of those scars for the rest of your life. Doesn't seem like much now, but think in a few months.

Cutting or self-harm is usually an outward expression of inner turmoil. How old are you? I would talk to your parents and guidance counsellors at school about what you're internalizing. You might not realize that there is anything wrong until you're a lot farther down the road. This could just be teen angst but I got a feeling it is much, much more. Please talk to someone about this. In is dangerous and concerning.

Cutting or self-harm is usually an outward expression of inner turmoil. How old are you?
You might not realize that there is anything wrong until you're a lot farther down the road. This could just be teen angst but I got a feeling it is much, much more. Please talk to someone about this. In is dangerous and concerning.

I'm 14, I'm just okay with it really and I'm only going to do it... let's say if I'm really depress and won't do it as a habit

There are a ton of alcoholics, smokers, and drug addicts that say the same thing.

This is really bad. Really really bad. I really need to chose my words carefully because I don't want you to scroll.

Hurting yourself only when you're depressed won't fix the depression. A lot of cutters do it so that they know they can still feel something or that they can feel something different. What will end of happening if you continue down this road this that you'll become depressed, not clinically but "I am a teenager and life sucks because my hormones are all over the place." and you will cut and it will feel good, but that high will only last so long and you will continue to do it. Regardless of where you cut you will mark up your body and in a way the will be hard to hide.

A harsh piece of information: People will judge you and be repulsed by this. They'll see this and assume that you're unbalanced and dangerous and won't want to associate with you. True beauty is on the inside and we shouldn't judge the book by the cover is a good idea but it's horsesh!t and doesn't happen in the real world. It will stop you from succeeding when you're over this depression. Point blank, it will hurt your future regardless of what you do.

The two paths, as I see it right now are:
1). You continue doing what you're doing and your body is a direct count of what you feel. You'll either have to wear concealing clothes or make up to cover the scars to just fit into your jobs. You're love life will be rocky because a lot of women will run when they see the scars or they'll be just screwed up enough to mess you up too.
2). You get help. Figure out depression and work through it. You put away your knife and do what you need to. Eventually, might be a long time, things get better. Life continues...

So now that you've decided that everything I have said is irrelevant to you, you'll continue doing what you're doing. I was a teen not too long ago.

Get help. Please. At least talk to your parents.

Actually I'm a girl and I do understand what your saying, I'm actually looking at my scars when I go to school and think that it was a mistake but I can't really talk about it to my parents and I can't tell this to any of my friends they really won't care (._.) but I'll asure you that this won't be out of hand I can actually control myself

And I mean it. I love myself (cause no one dares to love me but myself) it's just sometimes it hard to cope up with all this situation and it's not the first time that I tried suicide (which I won't do again) the reason why I tried cutting myself to see if anyone does love me and at least cared for me so if no one cares no one can stop me! Nothing but the hard truth

You're probably not going to end up reading this, but long shot again.

You're not telling anyone you love, loves you, or cares for you, that you're doing this. You're cutting yourself to see if anyone notices and loves you. You're ashamed of the scars. You convinced that no one cares for you.

I just honestly want to slap you. I really do. What you're essentially doing is painting a toe nail red, wearing shoes, socks, and tights and basing your existence on whether your friends noticed that you've painted a single toe nail. You're being selfish and short sighted.

Talk to your parents. Talk to your friends. They care. That's why they're your friends and your parents. You think they're wrapped up in their own world but they're not. You have to trust them to talk to them and you know they will listen. You're not as alone as you think you are. If you're unconvinced think about if you hadn't failed your suicide attempt. There would be a bunch of people at your funeral. Some of the clips will be:
- Why didn't she say something?
- I knew she was kind of sad but I didn't think it was this bad.
- I saw some of the scars, but was too afraid to say anything
- I always meant to say something but the time never seemed right.
- etc.
At least that was what was said at the funeral of my friend that decided to swallow too many pills.

You're trying to, by pride mostly, take the emotional burden of your life upon yourself. You don't have to do it alone. Not many people can. You don't see it, but there are girls in your class that will spend hours crying on their phone to their bestie because of the pressure, sadness, family situation, or what not going on in their lives. They seem perfect at school, but they're not.

Reach out to people. You will be surprised who will reach back. You can't expect people to always reach out to you, especially if they don't know that you're hurting.