So a few nights ago I was walking home from training since my daddy or uncle couldn't pick me up and my car was in the shop. It started raining super hard when I was like 2 miles from my house. This SUV of dudes came up and asked if I needed a ride. I'd seen them around campus, but didn't know them. They seemed nice though. I got in and the guy drove right by the way to get to my house and said he knew a shortcut. We pulled up to this old looking house (way far from my place) and he told me there was a party with like 50 people (which there was) and asked me to come in. I thought that if I just play along he'll see that I don't want to be here for real and drive me home. Later he asked me to come upstairs and I decided to go, but say I don't want to have sex and maybe fake cry a bit to seal the deal and then he'd take me home. Walking up I noticed 3 guys following behind. I tried going back down, but the guys sort of grabbed and took me into the room and locked the door. I kind of knew what was going to happen so I went straight to the crying (which at this point wasn't fake) and they got angry and told me to shut up and everything. They made me drink this alcoholic thing that was probably spiked since I got light headed. Then it just to full on gang rape! They pulled off my clothes, hit me and it just felt like would never stop! I guess I blacked out because I don't remember what happened next or even the end of all that. I just remember waking up barely clothed in some guys apartment on his couch. He was much friendlier and fixed me a sandwich and a glass of OJ. I told him what happened and he drove me home. I haven't done anything about this yet. I don't know what to do! My daddy and uncle have no idea and I don't how tell them! My daddy just retired from Navy special forces and is looking forward to taking it easy now. I don't want to make him mad after all the hell he put up with the past years. How am I suppose drop my freaking stupidity on him?? How mad do you think he'll be? This morning I was making myself some tea and he came up from behind me and said good morning. I was so on edge and jumpy, that I screamed, dropped the mug and started crying. Please I don't know what to do!! I haven't gone to the police either. I don't want those guys coming after me! We go to the same college and if they find out I turned them in they might do something to me again. Please help me!! I'm desperate!!

You were raped. That's a crime. You could be pregnant. You could have an STD.

This needs to be reported - if you explain it to your Dad (and your uncle - ?) hopefully they will understand. If you don't think they will go to a hospital ER and/or Physician and ask for their help in tellng your father. You are undoubtedly bruised and battered. You need medical attention.

Only you can keep the next girl from being raped.

I'm the adult survivor of rape. Do not blame yourself. You made a bad choice. Don't let it control you.

Where does your father think you were overnight? Aren't your clothes torn? Doesn't he wonder about that? Your father very well may have some suspicions, already be putting the pieces together.

You need to think of future girls these guys might attack.