Hi I'm basically in need to talk to someone ASAP... Every day I feel more and more on edge as if my life is ending... And that's not literally but more emotionally.. I just feel like fings going on around me are hard for me to control or even follow. I recently realized I still love my ex and all when I saw a picture of his new born baby... The fing is he constantly kept coming to see me where I work and contacting me da 3 years we've been apart.. But now I actually really want him back.. He has this new b

New born baby... And I get that but we went through a lot back then.. I'm 24 now and I know he loves me because I feel it but I feel like its my fault for leaving him when things got hard and for not going bak to him sooner... And now I can't take it that I need and want him so bad because I always thought me and him wuld have the family an marriage and everything... The fing is he has told me to be patient and just believe and be positive bit I'm worried because what if I'm waiting and den dey work fings out..? Wat if he changes his mind and actually makes fings work?

1. You did not say if he and bang mamma are together. 2. You say you do not want to 'wait around' so think to yourself what would you be doing different if you weren't 'waiting around'. 3. If he is still coming around you need to tell him that it is emotionally hard on you.

You need to focus on yourself and get help from a counselor to do that. We tend to think we can control things, but we cannot and there has to be a healthy acceptance of that fact because life will always throw us curves. You also need to learn to define yourself, not based on the love or need of another person, but based on what YOUR passions in life are... you need to know that YOU are a terrific person and YOU can be and do anything in life on your own. A counselor can help you find what is right for you. It is difficult to take that first step but I promise you if you do your life will change for the positive. I know because I had to do it too.