Its been 4 years. I am in severe depression, almost suicidal. I have done a lot of bad things in life, without knowing it.
This involves 4 girls
Gir1: Class mate, Ex
Gir2: School Mate, Ex
Gir3:Senior to me,Once Best Friend, Complicated


I met Gir1 and we started dating. I dumped her for Gir2, just because I was gir1 was not willing to reveal the relationship (make it public, not going out etc.. not my type). Gir2 and I were dating, even had sex a couple of times. I come from a part of the world, where pre-marital sex is looked down with contempt. When Gir2 and I were dating, Gir3 got intimate with me and we sexted and exchanged dirty pictures.I sent her naked pics to my friends, which Gir3 found out eventually.Gir3 and I separated. I was guilty over my break up with Gir1 that I was obsessing over her,all the time I was with Gir2. I couldn't do anything, I was guilty over a lot of things. So, I got back together with Gir1,dumping both Gir2 I became a changed Gir1 and I were happy for about 6 months, but everything I had done in the past with Gir2 and Gir3 surfaced somehow and Gir1 left me for dead.

I am devastated. It has almost been one year since I had seen her. I don't know what I am doing with my life anymore. I have been crying a lot. I need peace. What should I do?

Get some therapy. You said you did bad things without knowing it yet you listed the bad things you did. Learn from what you did so you don't do them again

"What should i do? "

Start with growing up. This reads as if you were in middle school trading girlfriends with friends of yours. You sound very immature, so much so that it is no wonder they won't be your girlfriend anymore. Realize they see your behaviors and realize you are not worth the time. So change your behaviors and maybe a girl will want to be with you.

Guilt is self indulgent. You have no right to cry.
Make amends. Since you can't make amends with the girls you hurt, you 'pay it forward' by being honest, straightforward, and kind to anyone and everyone you meet, and you stay away from relationships until you have proven to yourself that you have gained integrity.

Guilt is self indulgent. You have no right to cry.
Make amends. Since you can't make amends with the girls you hurt, you 'pay it forward' by being honest, straightforward, and kind to anyone and everyone you meet, and you stay away from relationships until you have proven to yourself that you have gained integrity.

I love that term "pay it forward". If more people did that there would be more joy in the world. Also this person needs to realize it is very simple:

Bad Behavior = Bad Outcome
Good Behavior = Good Outcome

So which should he choose??

It is just that simple.